See this image larger
February 2011 (211 lbs)

See this image larger
I want this swimsuit AND her body, haha.

go to goodies page
go to goodies page
Happy Birthday
go to goodies page
Happy Birthday

Add as SparkFriend Send Private Message Leave Comment Recent Message
Board Posts

Highest Weight: 240+
Starting Spark Weight: 240
Current Weight: 211
Goal Weight: 140
Lost to date: 29 lbs.

For as long as I can remember I've been trying to lose weight. It's gotten harder within the last few years because I have let it get out of hand. My closet consists of nothing but t-shirts and sweat pants, and I can never turn down sugar. I can't bring myself to exercise like I should, and fried, greasy chicken tenders is my favorite food.

These past few years are a blur. I'm amazed at how quickly the pounds came on. It's like it happened overnight, and no matter how hard I try to lose this weight, nothing happens. If anything, I gain. I am 22 years of age, and I weigh over 200 lbs.

I avoid people. cut conversations short. I stick in the shadows now, and never have fun with anything. this isn't what life is suppose to be. I'm 22, I should be in college, learning. and feeling good about myself, meeting new people.. which I once LOVED to do! I somehow stopped caring how I looked.. and that's not me.

There was a time when I was sure of myself. When I knew who I was, and what I was all about. It's weird how this weight can make me so unsure of who I am, or what my goals are in life. I don't want to lose myself. I don't want let my goals slip out of my hands because I can't grasp reality, or get in shape.

I want to be happy, I want to be confident, but most of all.. I want to be me; and I want to have a smile on my face. That's what brings me here, to this point. I have let my health and appearance get out of control, and I'm ready to fix that. I have tried numerous diets, but I can NEVER even get past the first week. I have a problem with grounding myself, and keeping it going. It shouldn't be this hard to take care of your body, it should be my first priority.

I'm getting tired of sitting on the sidelines, I wanna take the stage.


**Goals and Rewards**

March 1: Goal Weight: 205 lbs.
Goal Reward: A new band tee.

April 1: Goal Weight: 195 lbs.
Goal Reward: A new work-out outfit.

May 1: Goal Weight: 185 lbs.
Goal Reward: A cute new pair of Victoria's Secret PINK panties.

June 1: Goal Weight: 175 lbs.
Goal Reward: A hot new outfit.

July 1: Goal Weight: 160 lbs.
Goal Reward: A new wardrobe.

July 31: Goal Weight: 145 lbs.
Goal Reward: Wear something hot to Minerva 2011.

August 1: Goal Weight: 145 lbs.
Goal Reward: See 30 Seconds to Mars LIVE VIP!

September 1: Goal Weight: 140 lbs.
Goal Reward: A photoshoot with my husband and daughter.

October 1: Goal Weight: Achieved Weight.
Goal Reward: Something hot for Halloween.

November 1: Goal Weight: Achieved Weight.
Goal Reward: A peace sign Tattoo on my hip bone.

December 25: Goal Weight: Achieved Weight.
Goal Reward: Dress Up for Christmas.

December 31: Goal Weight: Achieved Weight.
Goal Reward: Cute little black cocktail dress for New Years Eve.


**February 13, 2011**
Wow, I created this profile in 2009. It is now 2011, and I am signing in for the first time in a long while. I was doing well, and then I got married (so happy), and before I knew it. Pregnant. I do not regret this, as I am the happiest I have ever been in my entire life. We now have a five and a half month old daughter, and she is our everything. This is more reason why I need to get healthy. I need to be healthy for my family, for myself, and our future. It is still the beginning of a new year, and I plan on getting this under control/fast. My husband does a music festival every year in our town, and I have approximately five months to lose a majority, if not all of my excess weight. Who wants to help? God knows I need the encouragement.


***Inspirational Quotes***
--"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't suppose to ever let you down, will. You will have your heart broken more than once, and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take many pictures, take too many chances, live for the moment, and love like you've never been hurt, because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin."

--"Instead of giving myself reasons why I can't, I give myself reasons why I can."

--"The difference between try and triumph is just a little umph!"

--"The road to success is dotted with many tempting parking places."

--"Those who wish to sing, always find a song."

--"We are who we want to be."

O - is for OVER being fat
N - is for NOT giving up
E - is for-EVER

Member Since: 1/7/2009

Fitness Minutes: 1,265

My Goals:
**Goals for 2011**
1. Find a hobby that I enjoy and want to progress in.
2. Meet my weight loss goal of 140 pounds.
3. Lower my blood pressure to normal.
4. Gain a stronger bond with everyone around me.
5. Be more patient.
6. Learn not to overreact over such small things.
7. Learn to be more cautious with my money.
8. Make exercise a PART of my life, and not an obligation.
9. Learn not to worry so much.
10. Not sleep so much, and try to stick with 6-8 hours.
11. Drink at least 64 ounces of water a day.
12. Become a SparkPeople Motivator.
13. Reach my goal weight, and look beautiful for my wedding in Nov.
14. Overcome shyness.
15. Have my clothes fit better.
16. Go shopping, and actually BUY clothes.
17. Stretch every morning.
18. Cut out Caffeine.
19. Boost Self-Confidence.
20. Gain my femininity back (I feel like I've lost that since I've gained).

My Program:
**Stage 2**
1. Exercise at least 45 minutes a day; 4 days a week.
2. Drink 8 glasses of water a day.
3. Completely cut out sodas.
4. Low Carb intake.
5. Lower my chocolate intake too (HUGE DEAL).
6. Cut back--Portion IS everything.
7. Stay in the range of a 1200 Calorie diet.

Personal Information:
My name is Ashley. I am 22 years young. I am one of three siblings. I have two other sisters. I am the youngest. I am married, and now have a six month old daughter. She is beautiful. Right now, the most important thing to me is getting healthy for myself, and my family.

Other Information:
Thank you to all of you Sparkies who have showed me your support. I wish you all goodluck with your future workouts and weigh-ins.

Read More About ASHLEYMIXTAPES - Profile Information moved here. (Updated February 13)

Shown if member clicks "Read More"

(Shown after Message Board Posts)
Add a Link
Save Changes
My Ticker:
 current weight: 211.0 
Login to Leave Comment
    HAPPY BIRTHDAY emoticon
    3796 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon


    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3796 days ago
  • v JIBBIE49
    emoticon Happy Belated BIRTHDAY, Done Girl emoticon

    The Cancer girl can be rather shy, as she appears to have a "hard shell" but inside she is very soft, so criticism can make her withdraw from others. When she gets to be a teen she can find her "voice" and get rather "crabby" and let others know that she's had enough. She can certainly have a problem with being obese, as FOOD is such a comfort to her. She loves to feed others and since she has to be careful not to take on the moods of others around her, she loves to make them HAPPY and food can do that. She is a good listener and others find her so they can "dump" their problems on her. But, she needs to find some way to release HER issues, other than food. Dance, or walking in the woods can help her release frustration, but she really isn't the athletic type.

    The Cancer Sun Sign personality can cover a wide range of characteristics, from withdrawn to famous. At the basic level, they are conservative and family-oriented. They like to build their nest and keep it secure. They like children and often have a large family. Their home is often kept for their family's comfort and security, rather than as a showplace.
    Cancer Sun Sign likes privacy, though they can be sociable when it is appropriate. They can put up a good facade of appearing unemotional, obstinate or shrewd, but those who know them best see someone completely different. Underneath they are kind, sympathetic and sensitive. They can be very imaginative, which can be good or bad, depending on the situation. They may try to make real life fit a romantic ideal. They like art and literature, and they especially appreciate drama.
    While they are seen as being very down to earth, many are actually fascinated by the occult or psychic phenomena. Some have some psychic talents of their own. They may be generous to a fault at times; it won't usually happen unless they know there are no other alternatives. They are frugal with their resources, but if the need arises, will give willingly.
    In relationships, they can be very sentimental and emotional. Romance is important. They are loyal partners, though sometimes the sensuality of an affair may tempt them. This sign loves without reservation, asking for little in return. They are nurturing and caring, though they can be a little smothering at times. Their loved ones hold a lot of sway and can influence them easily. They can also be easily hurt. While they appear tough on the outside, the inner Cancer personality is often tender and easily bruised. They make a loyal friend, though they may tend to exclude those who are not in the "inner circle." They also have an exceptional memory, and this may get in their way sometimes as they may have difficulty leaving the past behind.
    When stressed, Cancer Sun Sign needs time alone. They don't like to talk about their problems. Give them the time and space to deal with their issues and soon they will come back to their normal position in the family. Cancer Sun Sign is also very creative. If they spend most of their time at home, they can amaze their family with their domestic creativity. In the workplace, they excel as a writer, public affairs, nursing, or in the kitchen. As a politician, they will have no problem changing parties if needed to achieve their goal. Real estate, gardening and antiquing may be appealing to them. They are good with money, and will know how to sock some away for a rainy day
    Cancer Sun Sign can be untidy, moody or full of self-pity. They are also easily flattered. Ambitious, they can gain favor by following the prevailing opinion, whether they personally like it or not. They can be strong supporters of causes that they identify with.
    As Cancer is a water sign, those born under it have an affinity for water. Water is healing and restorative to their nerves. Frequent visits to a source of water will keep them happy and emotionally healthy. emoticon
    3796 days ago
    emoticon emoticon Happy Birthday to you DONE Girl emoticon emoticon
    3796 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    Happy Belated Birthday! I hope all your best birthday wishes come true & your day is DONE with style.
    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3796 days ago
Member Comments (219):  < Previous1234Next >Last >>