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I am the queen of false starts and I will be the queen until I finally make it. (Maybe then I will start to call myself The Empress).

I have not been honest for the majority of my life. I am not going to be too hard on myself about it, because I did not fully understand that I was dishonest. You see, almost from day one, or at least as long as I can remember, I've tried to do it right. I've tried to be correct instead of just doing it the way I'm meant to do it. "It" being live. I've been living the expectations of others. Not just anyone but the people that love me. I have believed that they know what is best for me andI have been very wrong. I realized, just this evening, that I need to piss some people off and then get on with the business of living.

What I understand fully now is that I am fat because I am not being me. I know that as certainly today as I know I'm breathing. I did not know it yesterday. I am going forward with the idea that when I am standing in the kitchen eating something that I should not be eating it is because I have not said what needs to be said OR I am censoring myself in some way. I am 37. This is midlife and I would prefer to feel like I lived fully when I keel over, or when I'm being rolled around the nursing home in a half conscious state.

So, here is my pledge;

I promise to speak my mind in situations where it may not be popular. I will speak it not for reaction but for the opportunity to present myself honestly to the world...for myself and MY greater happiness.

I promise to stop eating when I should not be (in between meals, extras) and consider what I am subduing (sp??)

I promise to give myself a ton of credit for every positive decision...and I mean tons of credit, lavished upon me, like silk on a princess.

I promise to be the best mom I can and stop beating the hell out of myself for being less than perfect. I know it is not perfection but love and humility that builds good people. I KNOW THAT!!


Member Since: 5/10/2007

Fitness Minutes: 1,191

My Goals:
March 31 220
April 30 219
May 31 215
June 30 205

My Program:
South Beach Phase II
Exercise 30 minutes, 4X week

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Look younger and healthier
Be able to wear more stylish clothes
Be able to shop more places for clothes
Be able to find cool second hand stuff, pay little, look great!
Be healthier
Feel Better
Have more energy
Be with my friends!

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Eat, Pray, Love
Elizabeth Gilbert

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    Thank you for your kind comments on my blog! One of the most amazing things about Spark is the way we can inspire one another! I am thrilled if I can help you in any way! Remember that YOU are worth working hard at your own personal goals - even if you get stuck or "fall off", you can get back on or re-start your day at any time - just keep trying to make wise, healthy, decisions as often as you can! Fell free to send me a SparkMail - I'm not on every day, but will try to respond as quickly as I can! {{{sweaty hugs}}} Judi
    4686 days ago
    Thanks for stopping by my page! Yes, I had issues with chocolate this weekend to! I'm guilty of that crime! Take care!
    4699 days ago
    Another team met from Just do it! Welcome to Beck! Best Wishes!
    4702 days ago
  • v no profile image BALDYJOHN
    As it is almost St. Patrick's Day (Monday 17th) I decided as I'm not on site much anymore and not posting, that I would drop by to wish all those friends who support and encourage me, people who take time to leave comments on my page and/or blog and those that message me
    A HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY & a great weekend.

    Although at times I'm slow to reply to people and to be honest sometimes I forget, i just want you to know that they are appreciated and those close friends of mine here "Thank You". You may be out of sight but you're not out of mind.

    Keep smiling all and once again "Happy St. Patrick's Day & greetings from Ireland"

    John :-)
    4785 days ago
  • v no profile image PARIS2009
    Hi there - just dropping by to see how it's going. Hope things are moving along nicely for you!

    I'm still plugging away. I'm so glad the holidays are over - I feel like it took all of January to recover from those December indulgences. Physically and mentally.

    Keep at it! You can do it!

    Take care,
    4829 days ago
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