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I am the queen of false starts and I will be the queen until I finally make it. (Maybe then I will start to call myself The Empress).

11/23/2009
I have not been honest for the majority of my life. I am not going to be too hard on myself about it, because I did not fully understand that I was dishonest. You see, almost from day one, or at least as long as I can remember, I've tried to do it right. I've tried to be correct instead of just doing it the way I'm meant to do it. "It" being live. I've been living the expectations of others. Not just anyone but the people that love me. I have believed that they know what is best for me andI have been very wrong. I realized, just this evening, that I need to piss some people off and then get on with the business of living.

What I understand fully now is that I am fat because I am not being me. I know that as certainly today as I know I'm breathing. I did not know it yesterday. I am going forward with the idea that when I am standing in the kitchen eating something that I should not be eating it is because I have not said what needs to be said OR I am censoring myself in some way. I am 37. This is midlife and I would prefer to feel like I lived fully when I keel over, or when I'm being rolled around the nursing home in a half conscious state.

So, here is my pledge;

I promise to speak my mind in situations where it may not be popular. I will speak it not for reaction but for the opportunity to present myself honestly to the world...for myself and MY greater happiness.

I promise to stop eating when I should not be (in between meals, extras) and consider what I am subduing (sp??)

I promise to give myself a ton of credit for every positive decision...and I mean tons of credit, lavished upon me, like silk on a princess.

Lastly,
I promise to be the best mom I can and stop beating the hell out of myself for being less than perfect. I know it is not perfection but love and humility that builds good people. I KNOW THAT!!

Peace



Member Since: 5/10/2007

Fitness Minutes: 1,191

My Goals:
March 31 220
April 30 219
May 31 215
June 30 205


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South Beach Phase II
Exercise 30 minutes, 4X week



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Look younger and healthier
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Be able to find cool second hand stuff, pay little, look great!
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Eat, Pray, Love
Elizabeth Gilbert





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  • v GAYLEHOUSE
    Hi Caroline, I'm Gayle and I wanted to welcome you to the "Eating Because You are Bored" Team. You will find some great people here and I hope it helps to know we are all suffering with the same challenges as you are. I look forward to seeing you on the posts. :)
    5080 days ago
  • v DAMOMMASBOYS
    Thanks for your comments and encouragement on my page....I'm just as rebellious as you are! It's very hard for me to tell myself no most of the time, especially when chocolate and fried greasy foods are the item I'm trying to say no to! :) This time I'm not denying myself food though, which I've always done in the past with every diet I've ever done..and by not telling myself I Can't have it most of the time I make the right decision anyway. It's always been that way...forbid something and I want it even more..hehe Good luck to you, and feel free to add me to friends..I know I can use all the buddies here that I can get to help me do it and do it right this time.....we can help each other and do it together! :)
    5085 days ago
  • v IMDOINITNOW
    Good Morning. Have a great day! You can do it!
    5088 days ago
  • v TOEZIE
    You're doing a great job and keep up the good work.
    5090 days ago
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