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Here we go, back at it again :D

I think I am finally getting to a place where I am willing to do whatever is necessary to save my life. If I don't I won't be here long, and so far I am not living much of a life trapped in my body.

A little bit about me:

*I've battled weight most of my life, survived sexual abuse and a emotionally and mentally and physically abusive childhood.

*I battle food addictions, I am a compulsive over eater, a food addict, an alcohlic, a drug addict, a sex addict, and co-depedentant

*I will never be "cured" of my addictions, but I WILL find peace and usefullness in this life

*I no longer believe I need to fight life with rage and brute force, I did this most of my life. now peace and calm are the path I seek to walk

*I no longer have to be "brutally honest" with people, the only person I must be honest with is myself

*I still believe that standing up for myself and the rights of others is important. I do not believe this must be done violently, nor does everyday have to be a battle. Its about choosing the right causes and working for change, not anger and conflict

*I no longer fight against people, I work for change

*Its becoming less and less important to be RIGHT all the time, I like the quote "do you want to be right or be kind"

*I struggle hard everyday to keep my ego in check and make life NOT about me, but about others.

* I cannot change anyone or anything but myself, I cannot control anything or anyone but myself so why waste the energy trying? We all try to "help" people by trying to make them do what we think is best for them. Maybe even sometimes we do know whats best for them but you cannot help anyone who does not want help.

*I want to focus on learning who I am and what I stand for and less about how I think other people should think and feel because its none of my business. If they need help I want to think I stand ready to help and I will offer my help but if they refuse it then its my job to leave them be because there is nothing I can do for them.

*I am learning that life is about the journey not the destination, far to often I focus on where I am going and miss the miracle of what surrounds me on the way.

Everyday is a work in progress I will never be "done" I will always be learning and moving forward.

"So often times it happens that we live our lives in chains
And we never even know we have the key" The Eagles (Already.Gone)

Useless Fact about me: Most often times my blog titles are titles of whatever song is playing on my music player as I write.

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Member Since: 3/10/2006

Fitness Minutes: 3,608

My Goals:
I want a better life for myself, I want a healthy and productive life. I do not wish to live in my self imposed prison of fat anymore

My Program:
I belong to a 12 step program. I have a meal plan that I follow. I am putting together a physical plan that has swimming and tai chi for exercise. I also have a mental/spiritual plan that includes mediation as well as reading and teaching myself because KNOWLEDGE IS POWER

Personal Information:
Once again I recommit myself to the fight. I have periods of melancholy and my mood swings so violently from sad to depressed, I do not want this for myself anymore. I need to do the WORK that is necessary to make a better life for myself. I need to take the ACTION that is necessary to make a better life for myself. I have my higher power which I choose to call God handling the big stuff and I have my feet on the ground handling the rest.

Other Information:
" Taking ACTION is the ultimate power of Motivation. Nothing beats it, period."
Written in 2012 by Edgar Ng

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    Thanks for adding me sparky friend!
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    2150 days ago
    Congrats on the Pounds done gone!
    Best to you as you continue your journey!
    Getting started is the first step.
    2154 days ago
    I just read this poem & felt it too good not to share on this CHRISTmas Eve! God bless!

    {This is another version of 'Twas The Night Before Christmas' }

    'Twas the night before Jesus came
    and all through the house
    Not a creature was praying,
    Not one in the house.
    Their Bibles were lain on the shelf without care
    In hopes that Jesus would not come there.

    The children were dressing to crawl into bed.
    Not once ever kneeling or bowing a head.
    And Mom in her rocker with baby on her lap
    Was watching the Late Show while I took a nap.

    When out of the East there arose such a clatter.
    I sprang to my feet to see what was the matter.
    Away to the window I flew like a flash,
    Tore open the shutters and threw up the sash!

    When what to my wondering eyes should appear
    But angels proclaiming that Jesus was here.
    With a light like the sun sending forth a bright ray
    I knew in a moment this must be THE DAY!

    The light of His face made me cover my head
    It was Jesus! returning just like He had said.
    And though I possessed worldly wisdom and wealth,
    I cried when I saw Him in spite of myself.

    In the Book of Life which He held in His hand
    Was written the name of every saved man.
    He spoke not a word as He searched for my name;
    When He said "it's not here" my head hung in shame.

    The people whose names had been written with love
    He gathered to take to His Father above.
    With those who were ready He rose without a sound.
    While all the rest were left standing around.

    I fell to my knees, but it was too late;
    I had waited too long and thus sealed my fate.
    I stood and I cried as they rose out of sight;
    Oh, if only I had been ready tonight.

    In the words of this poem the meaning is clear;
    The coming of Jesus is drawing near.
    There's only one life and when comes the last call
    We'll find that the Bible was true after all!

    (by Reverend Edward M. Gionest, Sr.)

    To those who receive Him, He gives the power to become the sons of God, even to those that believe on his name. Repent and declare with your mouth that Jesus is your Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him up from the dead, you will be saved.

    2164 days ago
    hope all is well.
    have missed your daily blogs. you doin ok mister?
    2221 days ago
    emoticon Remember --- God calls us to seek perfection, not obtain it. God bless! emoticon
    2240 days ago
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