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Welcome to my page...I am a Wife, Mother, and CNA who has gone back to work about 2 yrs ago after being a stay at home mom for a few years. I have gained and lost and regained the same weight over and over again. My heighest all time weight was 300 lbs. My lowest recent weight was about 3 yrs ago and I got down to 217 lbs, it seems it only lasted a minute and I was back at my old habits and gained it all back and I am now at 263 lbs!! I truly would love to get down to 200 lbs for now. But I want to do it in a healthy and natural way, where my kids learn good eating and activity habits from me and not to use food as a best friend whom I go to when I am happy, sad, confused, annoyed, etc....etc......but to use it to fuel my body. I am a procrastinator when it comes to me Mrs. Excuse!! I can find an excuse to not exercise and I have done that for a long time. I feel like a failure at times as I can't seem to commit to anything for long term. I begin to question my ability to commit, what in the world am I so afraid of? Failing? Rejection? YEP...all of the above. I think my friends and family get tired of hearing me say..."I started this new diet and......" or..." I am going to work out EVERYDAY". I get discouragd when Life gets in the way of my plan of attack. I can plan like a pro.....but if something comes up...(kids get sick, car breaks down, work schedule interferes...etcc...) I totally freak out and my eating and exercising are the first things that suffer. I throw myself into what needs to be done...or what I "think" needs to be done 100% and I leave myself with 0% attention for myself. Then I am cranky and less tolerant with the ones who love me, my wonderful family. I take it out on them, when in fact it is all my fault and I should be mad at just ME!
This is why I have re-committed to taking care of myself. The old saying is true, "If momma ain't happy, then nobody is happy"!! I live this everyday and I am tired of not being happy. Nobody can do this for me, I must do it on my own.....that in itself is very scary and very lonely to me. I want support, I want help, I want encouragement.....but I can't rely on someone else giving it to me.....I must learn to Support, Encourage, Help and depend on myself and my own ability to take care of myself. So here is August 31st, 2008 and I am revamping my life one baby step at a time.

GOAL #1 is to write down on an index card my goals that I have posted here so I can look at them all the time.

GOAL #2 is to become happy with exercise.....Right now I struggle each day to do it...but I want to make it a part of my day just like breathing and has to be a MUST have for me. I will post blogs daily on what I did and how it made me feel.

GOAL # 3 Have more fun, be less serious and enjoy spontaneous and not so worried about if their is dust on things......(I am a clean freak and I hate it sometimes).

So starting with a list of 3 things I want to acheive over the next few months is a new beginning for me, I won't be perfect and I can't expect myself to be perfect, but I must try my best to do my best everyday in every aspect of my life.

There it in a nutshell....I hope someday I can motivate someone to just start small, I hope I can someday call myself a success and Love Myself Again.

Member Since: 12/28/2007

Fitness Minutes: 1,215

My Goals:
My goal first and foremost is to Love myself again. To love the skin I am in. I will never be supermodel thin and beautiful but I can get healthy and teach my kids to be healthy people too.

My Program:
1. SIMPLIFY my life...use sparkpeople menu planning to help me plan and shop for easy, cost friendly meals for my entire family.
2. MOVE my body more.

3. POSITIVITY more letting negativity suck me into the mire of nothingness.

4. FUN....have more of it!

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I love to read, crochet, play cribbage & play with my kids.

Love to camp, fish & hike too. Enjoy spending time with family and friends and just having fun whenever possible.

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  • v MELLBELL08
    HELLO I'm just dropping by to invite you to join my team YUMMY MUMMY...If you want to be on the yummiest team on here then don't be shy!!Hope to see you soon!!

    Mel emoticon
    4482 days ago
  • v DDOORN
    Good job working out after waking!

    Hopefully this will start a streak that will last a lifetime!

    Don, Co-Leader of All Health Professionals SparkTeam
    4524 days ago
  • v DDOORN
    Yes! You can do it!

    Rise and shine for that workout of mine! :-)

    Don, Co-Leader of All Health Professionals SparkTeam
    4524 days ago
    Just wanted to stop by and tell you what a emoticon job you are doing so far!

    Keep on, keepin' on and have a happy day!

    4540 days ago
    I have my fitness tracker right on my Sparks page. I am ready to start as soon as you are. Sometimes I don't log it till the next day. We can check eachother's pages. For me sometimes it is easier in the morning and sometimes it is easier in the evening so rather than making it every evening lets just say some time every day. How long should we try for?
    4543 days ago
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