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Introduction Text “At times our own light goes out and is rekindled by a spark from another person. Each of us has cause to think with deep gratitude of those who have lighted the flame within us.” I want to regain control of my life. I feel like my weight is a noose tied around my neck with an elephant attached, and I'm trying to swim the English Channel. I want to reclaim hiking, roller coasters, cute clothes and... 250 Reasons to Lose Weight (this may take a while): 250. Be able to sit in any chair without worrying about load capacity 249. Shop at Lane Bryant again 248. Shop at "regular" stores again 247. Be able to sit on my boyfriends lap 246. Be proud of myself and the way I look 245. No more back pain 244. No more knee pain 243. Go to a yoga class and not be embarrassed 242. Go to dance classes 241. Dance with bf without stomach being in the way 240. Bye bye pain in feet 239. Walk dog comfortably 238. Run with dog comfortably 237. Ski again 236. Fit in a roller coaster 235. Fit in one seat at movie theater 234. Fit in one seat on airplane 233. Wear cute shoes 232. Wear cute shoes in a smaller size 231. Be able to sleep in queen size bed with bf comfortably (this may not be all my fault) 230. Be able to get up out of the bathtub without pain or fear of falling and breaking my neck 229. Skydiving 228. Bikinis (Ha!) 227. Tampons! 226. Feel sexy again 225. Enjoy lingerie again 224. See old friends without feeling bad or seeing pity in their eyes 223. See family without getting weight lectures 222. Stop making my bf fear for my health 221. Get a massage without feeling self conscious 220. Get married without regret or shame on my wedding day 219. Not have people look at me "that way" 218. Fit in a kayak 217. Backpack again 216. Hike the Appalachian trail 215. Jump on a trampoline 214. Be able to look down and see my feet 213. Look down and be able to find my lady bits 212. Look down without objects being blocked from view by my girth (small children and small dogs especially) 211. Sit in chairs with arms without pain 210. Not have to suffer in silence in a too small chair b/c of embarrassment 209. No more obsessing about food 208. Eating to live, not living to eat 207. Go clothes shopping with friends 206. Keep up with friends shopping 205. Make my family proud 204. Hang gliding 203. Go to beach proudly 202. Easily shave legs 201. Easily clip toe nails 200. Easily put on tights/hose 199. Look hot in jeans 198. NOT BE SO DARN HOT!! Darn my fat coat is hot! 197. Be able to wear shorts without them riding up my inner thighs 196. No more thigh chafing 195. Get a piggy back ride from my bf 194. Not be the fattest person in a room ALWAYS 193. Not worry about fitting in desks 192. Be able to clean without it taking everything out of me 191. Be a motivation to other people 190. Run a 5k 189. Run a 10k 188. run half marathon 187. Run marathon 186. Participate in Sprint Triathlon 185. Walk in 25+ mile breast cancer walk 184. Go to doctor without shame 183. Fit in cars better 182. Alleviate some fertility concerns. 181. Learn to snow board 180. Swim without floating too much 179. Write a book about losing all my weight 177. Get a bikini wax from a pro (hee hee hee) 176. Lose weight and meet Oprah (missed that boat) 175. Visit an old friend I haven't seen in a while and have them say I look great 174. Get pregnant 173. Be an active mother 172. Climb Manchu Pichu 171. Go on an REI active vacation 171. Have better sex 170. Not fear that people will judge me on my weight alone 169. Not worry about smelling sweaty or funky 168. To have my bf be able to wrap his arms around me better when he hugs me 167. To jiggle less 166. To wiggle less 165. To take a road trip all over the US to see friends I have not seen in forever 165. To get surgery, if needed, for loose skin 164. To leave senior citizens in the dust 163. Learn to sail large boats 162. Sit with my legs crossed 161. Shop at Victoria Secret to cover my lady bits 160. Be able to jump again 159. Have thinner fingers, so I don't have to have everything sized 158. Have a sordid affair with a smokin' hot Italian man in a villa overlooking the Mediterranean... ok just kidding 157. Travel to Italy and look smokin' hot while having a pic taken with a man who makes beautiful pasta sauce 156. Travel the world 155. Go on a hot air balloon ride 154. SCUBA DIVING!! 153. Be able to stand comfortably for hours 152. Not have enormous fat rolls 151. NO MORE DOUBLE CHIN!! 150. No more high blood pressure 149. No more edema in legs 148. No more fear of type II diabetes 147. Have a flat stomach 146. Lighter breasts 145. Drink less water for full hydration 144. Wear a thong comfortably 143. Learn to fly 142. Avoid heart disease 141. Decrease risk of cancer 140. Decrease risk of stroke 139. Dress up as something sexy for Halloween, not frumpy 138. Not feel frumpy in general 137. Be able to COMPLETELY enjoy my life 136. Kiss a man on every continent 135. Go spelunking 134. Better self-esteem equals better resistance to depression 133. Be the same size or smaller than my sister 132. Not be the fat cousin 131. To feel lighter 130. Reclaim reverse cowgirl 129. Learn to swing dance 128. Rollerskating again 127. Rollerblade again 126. Be a roller derby girl 125. Rock climb 124. Get up and down from floor without effort 123. Sleep in single person sleeping bag 122. More camping 121. Surfing 120. Become a Spark People Motivator (Re-earn that status) 119. Visit all the places in 1000 Places to See Before You Die 118. Try a pole dancing exercise class 117.Zorbing in New Zealand 116. Never worry about seat belts fitting 115. Zip lining ... More to come. I will complete this list. I'M GOING TO MAKE MY DREAMS COME TRUE LIKE SUSAN BOYLE. FOR ANYONE WHO WANTS TO WITNESS DREAMS COMING TRUE, PLEASE WATCH: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY MIRACLES HAPPEN. THERE IS SO MUCH JOY AND MAGIC, AND SO MANY BLESSINGS IN THIS WORLD!!!! "...beginnings are scary, endings are usually sad, but it’s the middle that counts the most. Try to remember that when you find yourself at a new beginning. Just give hope a chance to float up. And it will…” ~ Birdie in Hope Floats Starting Weight and All Time High: 420# Goal #1: Lose 10%-42#/378# - 4/2013 Goal #2: Lose 20%-84#/336# - 9/2013 Goal #3: Lose 30%-126#/294# Goal #4: Lose 40%-168#/252# Goal #5: Lose 50%-210#/210#- Have Huge Half of Me Party! Goal #6: Lose 60%-252#/168# Goal #7: Lose 70%-294#/126# (Ultimate Goal 115-135#)

Short term goals: 1. In general, lose 100lbs. (DONE) 2. Get below 200lbs, so I can get PREGNANT! Well, at least have that option. 3. Run a 5K

1. Drink 200 oz. of calorie free liquid a day, mostly water. 2. Stick to 5 healthy meals. 3. Exercise (either cardio/weights) 6 days a week. 4. Weigh in once a week





Add a Link "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same." ~ Marianne Williamson
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