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My healing journey
I've been overweight my whole life. I was a chubby child, teenager and young woman. I liked to walk and workout, but I also liked to eat! There were times in my life when I lost weight and felt more attractive and fit, but the norm for me was to gain weight whenever life became hard or a love relationship went wrong. Food was my resource for handling pain, and exercise stopped once I became depressed and started overeating again.
That's been a lifelong pattern, until a few ...
I've been overweight my whole life. I was a chubby child, teenager and young woman. I liked to walk and workout, but I also liked to eat! There were times in my life when I lost weight and felt more attractive and fit, but the norm for me was to gain weight whenever life became hard or a love relationship went wrong. Food was my resource for handling pain, and exercise stopped once I became depressed and started overeating again.
That's been a lifelong pattern, until a few years ago, at the age of 50. I started taking a long, hard look at my life. I realized that I was headed for an early grave because I didn't have a real reason for living. I was just surviving. My health was going downhill, I didn't have a lot of joy in my life and not much hope for things to improve. I felt like a real failure. I couldn't see the good things I had done over the years, but all the mistakes I made were crystal clear and I kept beating myself up for them. I didn't love myself. I was my own worst enemy.
I had a spiritual awakening one day. I was walking thru a beautiful neighborhood (trying to lose weight again) and just felt a wave of peace and this wonderful sense of oneness with God, with nature, and with the world. I felt God telling me that I was exactly where I needed to be and that the mistakes I made were part of my growing up. I learned that I was supposed to keep moving on with my life and to be the best me I could be. I was on the path to cleaning up my life and changing from a woman who had little hope to one who was full of it. I have never been the same since.
Every day I spend time connecting with nature, with God. I have up days and down days...the only difference is that "normal" is now peace, not despair. I have some painful days, but eventually I move back to a place of peace. That's where I am most of the time, and I'm thankful. I have a deep sense of caring for others, and I work every day to renew my spirit, to stay strong and optimistic. My connection to God means everything to me. Life has become a real positive journey that I enjoy taking. Most days I wake up with a smile on my face and looking forward to the day. I hope to live that way for the rest of my life.
I fully intend to reach my goal weight, and to be a healthy and fit 59 year old! My primary desire is to continue to grow spiritually and emotionally. I've been given another chance at life and I'm living it 100%!
Jae
Member Since:
7/31/2006
Fitness Minutes:
145,300
My Goals:
My new goals are to exercise every day, and work on my yoga poses and spend time in meditation, deep thought, and reflection. I visit Spark just about every day, and it feels great!
My Program:
I'm eating a cleaner diet, and I can feel the difference. I track my food whenever I can and drink a lot more water.
Personal Information:
I live in Georgia, one of the most beautiful states in the US., with some truly beautiful people.
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Care for one another, even in the midst of unkindness and intolerance.
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I've been overweight my whole life. I was a chubby child, teenager and young woman. I liked to walk and workout, but I also liked to eat! There were times in my life when I lost weight and felt more attractive and fit, but the norm for me was to gain weight whenever life became hard or a love relationship went wrong. Food was my resource for handling pain, and exercise stopped once I became depressed and started overeating again. That's been a lifelong pattern, until a few years ago, at the age of 50. I started taking a long, hard look at my life. I realized that I was headed for an early grave because I didn't have a real reason for living. I was just surviving. My health was going downhill, I didn't have a lot of joy in my life and not much hope for things to improve. I felt like a real failure. I couldn't see the good things I had done over the years, but all the mistakes I made were crystal clear and I kept beating myself up for them. I didn't love myself. I was my own worst enemy. I had a spiritual awakening one day. I was walking thru a beautiful neighborhood (trying to lose weight again) and just felt a wave of peace and this wonderful sense of oneness with God, with nature, and with the world. I felt God telling me that I was exactly where I needed to be and that the mistakes I made were part of my growing up. I learned that I was supposed to keep moving on with my life and to be the best me I could be. I was on the path to cleaning up my life and changing from a woman who had little hope to one who was full of it. I have never been the same since. Every day I spend time connecting with nature, with God. I have up days and down days...the only difference is that "normal" is now peace, not despair. I have some painful days, but eventually I move back to a place of peace. That's where I am most of the time, and I'm thankful. I have a deep sense of caring for others, and I work every day to renew my spirit, to stay strong and optimistic. My connection to God means everything to me. Life has become a real positive journey that I enjoy taking. Most days I wake up with a smile on my face and looking forward to the day. I hope to live that way for the rest of my life. I fully intend to reach my goal weight, and to be a healthy and fit 59 year old! My primary desire is to continue to grow spiritually and emotionally. I've been given another chance at life and I'm living it 100%! Jae
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My Goals:
My new goals are to exercise every day, and work on my yoga poses and spend time in meditation, deep thought, and reflection. I visit Spark just about every day, and it feels great!
My Program:
I'm eating a cleaner diet, and I can feel the difference. I track my food whenever I can and drink a lot more water.
Personal Information:
I live in Georgia, one of the most beautiful states in the US., with some truly beautiful people.
Other Information:
Care for one another, even in the midst of unkindness and intolerance.
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I'm making excellent progress! Can't wait to wear some of the great clothes in my closet!
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