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Introduction Text I have started and restarted the sparks program more times than I care to share. It really does work...or I wouldn't keep coming back. The problem with my gaining has nothing to do with SP. It has everything to do with my will power and my "wanna". I "wanna" be thin, but I don't "wanna" have to change. I have realized that I am an emotional eater. I didnt know that I was. YUCK!!! That means, instead of feeling bad, I will eat to feel better. If I am having a great day, "LETS CELEBRATE!!!" and out comes the food! I suppose I find excuses to eat...I live to eat, instead of eating to live. I hate the word diet, and this over whelming fear comes in whenever I think I am taking away my security. I have found that I link food with security...it is the only thing in this whole world that I have found will not abandan me...isn't that sad!!! It's not like I am so obese that the doctor said I NEED to loose weight. But I am over...and I am glad that I am catching it early enough where I might stand a chance. I heard a testamony yesterday from a woman in her 50's. She said that she looks and feels better now than she did when she was in her 20's! Wow!!! I will be 30 this year, and I am looking forward to having a testamony like that. (And!!!!---) as I have stated from the beginning...I have a whole closet full of cute clothes that are dying to come out!!! When I started this program originally back in June, I thought I would be at my goal weight by my birthday in December. I wanted to give myself that gift for Christmas. Back then I only had about 30 pounds to loose...and now I have 40 to loose. Anywho...even if I don't make it by then...if I can do this...make it at all...it will be better for my health both mentally and physically. My health has suffered so and I just cannot take it anymore. I am afraid...but I need to face my fears and just do this! So, I am looking forward to the wonderful people here...their support always meant so much. Here we go again...hopefully this is the last again!

Current Weight 180 Goal Weight 135 1st Goal: Find and Keep my motavation 2nd: Realize how important I am and believe in myself! I CAN do whatever I put my mind to! 3rd: Choose healthy steps! ie flush my system, eat more fiber, eat fruits and veggies, and be serious about this weight loss thing! 4th: Start a serious exercise regiment and just DO IT already! 5th: This really should have been closer to number 1, but stay with spark peeps! Thats what helped the first time! Make more friends and check in every day!

Doing things slowly so that it is a TRUE lifestyle change and not just a fad diet, where once I am not paying attention as much anymore, the pounds will quickly come back on. I have been THERE before. Evaluating lifestyle habits. Taking out ones that are harmful a little at a time, not to put my body into shock (ie limiting coffee intake, etc.). Putting in healthier steps.

Originally from WI. Have lived in MO, AZ and VA. Now live in TN.

"Three words to this song! HERE-WE-GO!" By Taylor Mason James 4:11-12 - Speak not evil one of another, brethren. He that speaketh evil of his brother, and judgeth his brother, speaketh evil of the law, and judgeth the law: but if thou judge the law, thou art not a doer of the law, but a judge. There is one lawgiver, who is able to save and to destroy: who art thou that judgest another? James 1:19-20 - Wherefore, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath: For the wrath of man worketh not the righteousness of God. 2 Corinthians 13:11 - Finally, brethren, farewell. Be perfect, be of good comfort, be of one mind, live in peace; and the God of love and peace shall be with you.

Add a Link ~~~~Jamie~~~~ Please hold my spiritual hand in this journey! I need serious help in this! I have gained so much weight in the last two years...I cannot keep going down this hill! My health is suffering!
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