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Introduction Text OK--tried to do a SparkPage 3 times so very frustrated! Last try!! I had surgery 2 weeks ago & had to be weighed for the General anesthesia (find out how much to put out an elephant!) & I've avoided scales for a long time so I was shocked to see I weighed 197.2 lbs. On my 5' 3" frame that means a lot of rolls, double (triple? I also avoid mirrors) chins, spider veins that appeared as the weight did, thick ankles, & only ONE top that fits as can't keep buying bigger & bigger & grow out of them (wash top every night). I re-sized my wedding & engagement rings TWICE (made larger, of course) & REFUSE to do it again despite my husband telling me to. It would be tantamount to admitting I will never be able to get rid of this excess weight so they sit in a drawer which makes me so sad as we've been married 38 yrs. & I was a size 2 when we got married & I know he is disappointed in what I've turned into (so am I). I've had assistance in gaining this weight from medication for bipolar depression, quitting smoking, menopause & WELL--ME! I overeat & use food as a dysfunctional coping tool: to ease boredom, loneliness,anger,"tune out" life & so much more, but it only works for a short period of time & then turns back against me w/lowering my self-esteem (already in the gutter; how much lower can it go?) & making all my problems worse in the long run.









Add a Link Ever tried? Ever failed? No matter. Try again. Fail again. FAIL BETTER!~Samuel Beckett
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