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Cha-Cha-Changes. I have been on this site off and on for years. I get started and then I quit and then I feel bad about it. It's a cycle that I realize I need to break. So why the Bowie lyrics? Because music speaks to me and often says what I need or mean better than I can. I often find lyrics that speak to my state of mind more clearly than I can describe. Four years ago, my husband started battling with depression, in trying to help him, I repressed my own demons until I became borderline. I would smile and try to be bright and cheerful for both of us and would consume fatty foods to try and help me cope. I finally talked to a therapist on my own and was able to get the tools I needed to minimize my own depressive swings, but I still slid into the habit of quick easy food and sitting on the couch to watch tv, rather than quick HEALTHY food and exercise, despite the fact that I LOVE to cook and pride myself on always having something to meet my friends various dietary needs. A year and a half ago, he decided that it would be best if we separated. In that time, I have ridden an emotional roller-coaster processing through all the anger, frustration, hurt, pain, guilt, and if I had to be honest a bit of relief (which of course cause more guilt.) But through it all, I learned three very important things: 1. I am stronger than I ever thought I was. 2. The end of my marriage is not a failure. It just had an expiration date sooner than I thought and it is transitioning into something else - equally as fulfilling. 3. I kind of like the person I am naturally - curious, interested, and wanting to see the world in all its diversity. So now I embrace two mottos: - A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. - Curiouser and Curiouser

Member Since: 7/31/2006

Fitness Minutes: 5,126

My Goals:
- I want to get down to a size 12. I am currently an 18/20.
- I want to get on a rollercoaster without worrying if the seat belt will fasten or I will be told that I don't "fit"
- I want to go out dancing and not be exhausted after 30 minutes.
- I want to travel and explore (without worrying about if I will fit or being exhausted after walking around).

My Program:
- When watching tv, stretch, move, or lift weights. Utilize the downtime.
- Walk at least 20 minutes on my lunch break every day.
- Track my food

Personal Information:

Other Information:
Some silly things about me~

- I love to cook. Dietary Restrictions are fun for me, because I see it as a puzzle that needs to be solved.
- I enjoy reading. I love anything sci-fi, fantasy, paranormal, metaphysical, or classic.
- I love to Dance. I have taken Jazz, Belly dance, and Burlesque classes. Next goal is fire spinning.
- I love music. I listen to pretty much all genres of music except country and gansta' rap. I really enjoy singing along in the car, in the mall, or wherever music is playing. (sometimes to the embarrassment of my friends)
- I am a huge and proud geek. I love anything Doctor Who, Star Trek, MCU, Harry Potter, Sense8, Sherlock, Fairy Tail, Disney, and Game of Thrones.

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