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A little boy in my class often refuses to eat, I'm trying hard to repair his relationship with food

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This is not my first attempt to loose weight, you name it I’ve done it! Numerous weight loss programs, tablets to reduce fat absorption, tablets to increase metabolism, prescription drugs, gyms, social sport, aquasize, diet shakes, etc the list goes on and on and here I am worse than ever and at my heaviest.

I guess I should share with you a brief summary of how I came to be here, my life thus far. I’m sure as we get to know each other I’ll find time to fill you in on many personal anecdotes, but for now here’s the short version.

Life on arse: I used to dance calisthenics, ballet, and ballroom. I performed in local theatre companies too, but then started putting on weight as a young teen and my mum and dad tried to take the tough love approach, they were at times pretty hard on me in their efforts to help - I'm the eldest of 5 girls and the only one who’s been really overweight. I'm a rather large number on the scales whereas in a quick comparison, my sisters all weigh close to half my number. My parents meant well, we are a very close and loving family, but I do remember times like when on our way home from school, I was dropped k’s from home and I had to walk the rest of the way as I watched the rest of the family drive off. I was served different meals sometimes and desert was not allowed. This led to secretly eating food when I was home alone in anticipation of being deprived later. Unfortunately I started this habit at around 13 years of age and still find myself eating secretively in my car or pre-eating before meals so it looks like I don’t eat so much when I can’t avoid eating in front of others.

Some of the bullying in my teens was pretty hard to take but I'm sure others had much worse. It was all the usual taunts, rotten food thrown at me even my hair set alight at one point, but through all this I had good friends and tried to make the most of everything else.

Anyway after a few blunders in the “what will I be when I grow up” phase of my life I ended up at university studying teaching. Eeek school wasn’t great the first time round and now I’ve gone back for more. I'm 6 months in to my first job and to say it's been a challenge is an understatement. Kids and there tactless honesty are reopening old wounds. Most often they might question whether I'm pregnant and one or two have said their parents think I really should do something about my weight (why they feel the need to discuss this with their 10 yo I have no idea) this is something that some days has me a grown woman, break down in tears once I get home (or the car park if I can’t make it).

I had a yucky health scare only 2 weeks into my new job. As a result I fell off the last wagon I was riding and then I swear it reversed back over me a couple of times. I gained the 15kgs I'd spent nearly a year getting rid of and found myself in the depths of despair. I decided to give blogging another shot (I'm not sure what I did wrong the first time but nobody read it) but just in case I joined here too hoping to find the inspiration and support I so desperately need to win the battle over my bulge once and for all.

So now I'm in preparation mode, gathering my thoughts and the necessary tools to ensure I can successfully refocus and start a fresh new chapter in my life. Ha I can't believe this is the short version lol.

I can’t promise the reading from here on in will be in anyway stimulating or profound. However if thus far you’ve fought the urge to whip off your fat pants and hang yourself, I commend you and challenge you to meet me here often.

If you want, we could make a pact to do this together, go on I dare you put down the fork and...

step away from the buffet!

Member Since: 1/9/2013

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My Goals:

To drink water everyday.

To use my gym membership.

To reward small achievements.

To run the 4km Mothers Day Classic - without walking.

To lose 52 kg in 52 weeks.

To inspire someone else to start their own journey.

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