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Introduction Text I have always been a bit over weight, though mostly "in shape". When I turned 18, i dropped out of High School, got my GED and joined the U.S Army. I thought I would spend the rest of my life in the military, but that didn't happen. In basic i lost about 10 lbs and 4 pants sizes. I fit into size 6-8 jeans, and felt amazing. I weighed in at about 160. I got married to the most amazing man in the entire world in 2007, literally 4 days after I finished training. About a year into my military career I started having bad back problems and SEVERE back spasms. Needless to say, I was put on a no run no jump no march profile, and could only walk/stand for an hour at a time. I wasn't allowed to lift more than 25 lbs. I started to put on more and more weight, They gave me a breast reduction to help ease the stress on 5 degenerating disks in my back, but It took months to get into physical therapy after the surgery, I was basically sedentary for 6 months, during which I discovered some amazing restaurants. I shot up to 190 and was put on the Overweight program. I worked hard for a few weeks, but because I never restrengthened my back I threw it out after a month, and wasn't able to keep up the exercise. I wasn't losing 2-3 lbs a week because I couldn't exercise properly (the pool was closed for construction/repairs) and the "eating right" just wasn't enough. In feb of 2009 I was discharged for "failure to meet weight standards" I got depressed and angry, The army was supposed to be my LIFE! I kept eating and not exercising, and gained another 50lbs (up to 240). I am completely disgusted with myself and shocked that my husband can even look at me, let alone be physically attracted to me. I am done. Finished. I'm going to kick those extra 80 lbs in the face, then toss out an extra 5-10 for good measure...the only problem is that I am HORRIBLE at keeping myself motivated because I get frustrated at my inability to do what I used to do, then give up. so Im here! Hopefully yall can help me stay on track!

I want to be healthy. Sure I want to look pretty in a dress, but most of all I want to be able to hike, and climb, and run. I want to be strong and confident again. I know what it's like to be healthy, fit, confident, and (I'll claim it!) hot! Its hell knowing what you could be/have been and seeing what you have let yourself become. I want the way I feel now to be a part of my past. Something that I can look back on and think "Wow, look where I've been" but never have to go back.

I have some medical problems so I wont be able to exercise as hard as I want to or think I should be able too (But I will be pushing myself to my own limits), so I am buckling down on my diet.

I'm 23, married 5 years. Originally I'm from Seattle, WA but my hubby is from Niagara Falls so we moved back east to spend time with his family before we settle back home. I used to be in the US Army and being a soldier is the only thing (aside from being a mom) that I have ever wanted to do. That didn't work out, and now I'm completely lost trying to redefine myself, my goals, and my passions. Coming here is a large step in that journey.



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