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Introduction Text I decided for my return to SP that I would update my user name to something more inspiring. I’ve always likened my weight loss efforts to the Greek myth of Sisyphus – a deceitful king who repeatedly outsmarted the gods. Zeus finally had him punished by forcing him to roll a large rock up a steep hill, only to watch it slide all the way down whenever he got close to the top. Sisyphus has long been used as a metaphor for futility and frustration. My perceptions of the mountain and the rock have changed over time. When I was really struggling with binge eating and depression, the the mountain represented my attitude that I had to overcome, and the rock represented all the emotional baggage I'm carrying along the way. I have learned to manage my depression - I won't say fixed/overcome, because it is still there, lingering, but I have found ways of living with it. And I won't lie, getting on the right combination of medication helps. The mountain can also represent my larger goals: getting healthy, completing my PhD, settling into my new role at work, and making time for my family. The rock in this case is self-sabotage, of which I am unfortunately guilty. Putting off working on my dissertation because I'm afraid of negative feedback from my advisor, eating junk food even though I have healthy alternatives available, working on easier tasks instead of the higher priority ones, etc. All these are things I know I should not do because they take me further from my goals, yet I do them anyway. And so they become my rock, pushing me farther down the hill, away from the summit that I'm trying to reach.

Become more in tuned with my emotional state, manage my binge eating disorder and depression, focus on my long-term priorities rather than what gives me satisfaction in the short term.

My personal hills: Acceptance Motivation Support Energy Strength Trust Confidence





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