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My highest weight, summer 2012

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This is a kiddie cone. Coming back to the States in summer 2012, I was baffled by portion sizes!

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Playing the piano at a friend's house. I love my music!

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When you look at yourself in the mirror and don't recognize the person staring back at you, it's time to do something about that.

I was a competitive athlete (despite being diagnosed hypothyroid at 13) until I was injured in an accident at 17. Going from being an extremely active teen to someone struggling to just walk again wasn't just painful, it was enough to crush my love of sports, of wanting to work out. Losing my fencing and other sports not only took away a possible career, it also took my body. I gained 20 pounds in the aftermath of the accident.

Thankfully, I had the other love of my life, my music, and my wonderful family to carry me through. I went to college, went to grad school, got my degrees and found another playing field on which to let out my competitive side with my dream job.

I've been an expat in Germany for two years now, and I still love it here (even though it's cold! Even in the summer!)- the people are amazing once you get past the slightly prickly first impression, the food is even better, and dare I mention the chocolate (sorry Germans, the Swiss have you beat there still, though)?

Needless to say, I went from... well, slightly chubby to chubby in those two years.

It's time to go back to slim, and I also want my athletic groove back. It's been a struggle, but I've slowly learned to work with my strengths and strengthen my weaknesses. So what if I have to wear my "bionic leg" (it's what I call my carbon fiber knee brace) to run? So what if it shortens my stride? I can still run! Not as fast, not as long, not with as nice a style as before, but I can do it! My body has had long enough to heal, now it's time to build again!

I've also taken to playing on a volleyball team. It's something inbetween an exercise in frustration (trying to get my reflexes to work with my slower-moving body parts) and pure joy (just jumping after every single ball, getting to make a great save sometimes, being with other like-minded people in an active environment- I can't even say how much I missed this!). I'm still learning to listen to my body there, especially since the injured knee is the one I used to power my jumps with. I'm slowly, slowly getting used to using the other side more, though.

So, with all the groundwork laid, it's time to take this to the next level. Clean up my diet, get on the wagon, become the athlete I've been.

I want me back, and I won't stop until I see her in the mirror again. This is what you get for making me competitive!

*~*~*Update: 12/2012*~*~*
Re-injured the knee and am working on rehab. It's slow going, the scar tissue from before is working against me and muscle strength&control are still poor. I'm bending to almost 30 degrees now though!

Member Since: 10/8/2012

Fitness Minutes: 9,521

My Goals:
Get rid of those 45lb that are annoying me

Rehab knee to working condition

Learn a new martial art

Run a 5k

Reduce thyroid med dose

Fit into prom dress again

Be the best me I can be!

My Program:
Eating right


more team sports (volleyball)

less eating out

try working less hours (I want to get down to the double digits per week)

take better care of myself.

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Whenever you put yourself out there and someone hurts you and chips away at who and what you are, remember that all it serves is to expose the core of steel that is you that much faster.


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  • v MNABOY
    Sorry to belatedly read you had reinjured your leg. Rehab is critical to recovery and use. Do it all and then some more. We miss you on the North East Arkansas Team.
    2506 days ago
  • v MNABOY
    Hope you enjoyed a blessed and tasty Thanksgiving.
    2614 days ago
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    Just cruising through leaving everyone with some motivational thoughts for today:

    “Decide what you want, decide what you are willing to exchange for it. Establish your priorities and go to work.” ~ H.L. Hungt

    “Believe in yourself! Have faith in your abilities! Without a humble but reasonable confidence in your own powers you cannot be successful or happy.” ~ Norman Vincent Peale

    “Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time.” ~ Thomas A. Edison

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    2768 days ago
    Wow, I haven't heard of Ingress until you mentioned it in one of your posts. I had to look it up online. Sounds interesting! Does it only work in a city environment?
    2768 days ago
  • v SWIMFIT1
    Hey just want to say I can relate to the frustrations of limitations due to injury and the chlorine allergy! I swim in an outdoor pool for rehab and I have breakouts of hives and rashes etc periodically especially if I swim in direct sunlight...and my face gets all crusty and blotchy. I have been 18 months rehabbing a calf tear and just succumbed to another set back after walking normally and being on my feet more. Previously I was hiking/walking about 3 to 5 miles a day and want so badly to get back to nature~! emoticon emoticon
    2784 days ago
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