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Hi Everyone, I have finally got the hang of using Sparkpeople and am excited to post here. I'm usually quite shy online as I worry about 'the unknown of the internet'. But this website is AWESOME. I have learned so much from other people openly and honestly sharing of their experience, that I feel reassured about putting mine up here.

As with many other stories, mine is not just about weight loss. My weight has been tied to my self-identity for as long as I can remember. I've been heavy most of my life but selectively so - heavily pear shaped. As long as I was slim somewhere on my body, I thought that all was okay. Additionally, I thought that it's the inside that counts. Well, at the grand decade of my thirties I've realized that the inside is mightily influenced by the outside and what people think of the outside.

My father died this year of diabetes. So it scared me to literally get off the couch and try to understand fitness. My first month at the gym nearly killed me. But I kept on keeping on and exercising a such a healing way to deal with grief. Now I'm obsessed with how my body is responding to being treated well. I'm learning to respect my body, my boundaries and allow my athletic inner being to resurface.

It's still really hard but I'll keep on keeping on. It's been a wonderful road of self-discovery thus far. I hope the same and more for you all.

Member Since: 4/12/2009

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Happily married for 9 yrs

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    hello there!! stopping by to wish you a wonderful healthy weekend!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2904 days ago
  • v WINNIE1978
    Thanks for keeping your fingers crossed for me and for sending me some positive vibes... I truly appreciate that! I will definitely be doing the tests... if my primary doctor is concerned about it then it's definitely worth investigating. He is the best doctor, as far as truly caring about his patients, that I've ever met. I may take a slow walk or two before the tests (on the 16th), but I'll be sure to take it easy for sure.
    2907 days ago
  • v XTMONT
    Thanks Gail! I had subscribed to your blogs at some point and I'm glad I did! Where in the Bay Area are you now?
    2927 days ago
  • v VIVIANLEE5689
    Thank you so much for your comment on my blog. I am so glad I have a place I can vent my concerns and not worry about repercussions. Life is not always easy and sometimes we all need support.
    2927 days ago
  • v XTMONT
    Glad you're back!
    2928 days ago
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