Roller Coaster o-o-o-o!
Friday, February 22, 2008
I titled this entry Roller Coaster because I felt like I was on an emotional one last evening and most of today. I know that part of it was probably the monthly issue, my back and legs hurt and I was being a cry baby. But, I also know that the enemy likes to come in when we are weak and lie to us.
I have a 3 step children. I know that life after their parents divorce was tough for them and I have tried to be a loving and supportive person in their lives. But do you know how hard it is to love someone who dosn't want you to? I kept asking myself that question. I kept thinking to myself, I will just stop caring about them. I will not worry about how they grow up or if they need anything. I will not talk to them........ then.........I thought of Him. I thought of how he felt when I didn't love Him. When I didn't want to hear His voice. I am so glad that He didn't feel the way I did when I didn't recieve the love that I thought I deserved. I am ashamed of how I let the enemy lie to me. I know better. Love is patient, love is kind. Love is LONG suffering.
I need to remember all of the victories that He has given me, and all that He will give me, but most of all I need to remember that I am His servant and a living testimony.
I love you all for being my sisters in Christ!