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Roller Coaster o-o-o-o!

Friday, February 22, 2008

I titled this entry Roller Coaster because I felt like I was on an emotional one last evening and most of today. I know that part of it was probably the monthly issue, my back and legs hurt and I was being a cry baby. But, I also know that the enemy likes to come in when we are weak and lie to us.

I have a 3 step children. I know that life after their parents divorce was tough for them and I have tried to be a loving and supportive person in their lives. But do you know how hard it is to love someone who dosn't want you to? I kept asking myself that question. I kept thinking to myself, I will just stop caring about them. I will not worry about how they grow up or if they need anything. I will not talk to them........ then.........I thought of Him. I thought of how he felt when I didn't love Him. When I didn't want to hear His voice. I am so glad that He didn't feel the way I did when I didn't recieve the love that I thought I deserved. I am ashamed of how I let the enemy lie to me. I know better. Love is patient, love is kind. Love is LONG suffering.

I need to remember all of the victories that He has given me, and all that He will give me, but most of all I need to remember that I am His servant and a living testimony.

I love you all for being my sisters in Christ!

Love, Lori
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    Lori, HE would never give you a challenge you wouln't be able to overcome. We all get tested in different ways. Not a lot of people like you out in the world who think other than for themselves.
    ((huggs)) Sandra
    4656 days ago
    Lori, You are so right...Love IS Patient, Kind, and as a "mother" it is also unconditional....Let them know that! No matter how much they push you away, you will STILL love them. You don't always have to "like" them, but you will always LOVE them!! You are such a positive influence and they are lucky to have you as a step mom!

    hugs and love,
    4657 days ago
    Lori sweet lady...you are in my prayers, raising kids is hard enough, then when you bring in a mix, it can be stressful. Get the kids into youth groups through the church, we had ours in Awana and it made a huge difference.

    You, my dear, are in my prayers for this situation. Don't let the enemy lie to you, as soon as you get a negative thought, claim 2Cor.10:5! It works.

    Love you
    4657 days ago
  • ELLE299
    I had a step daughter who rsented my marrying her Dad. She was determined to make me miserable. However, not long after we married I sat her down and told her that I loved her and that I always would. I then explained that the only one she was making miserable was herself and it was up to her when she wanted to get happy. It took time and perserverence, but eventually she came around. Children just wantto be loved and they fear the future. Just keep loving them, it all comes back in the end. Frustration is part of life, we accept it and then let it go and move on. You have a wonderful attitude and will make it through. Hugs, Elle
    4657 days ago
  • TIFFY84
    What a beautiful way to look at a difficult situation. I may not have to deal with this issue, but your entry has definitely touched me. You truly are a living testimony. Someday those children will see just how much you love them. I also read your first blog and was moved by the power of prayer. I haven't added many to my friends list, but I would like to add you so I can visit you often. Thank you for your wonderful words of faith!
    4657 days ago
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