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The Power of Love

Monday, April 07, 2008

I am so full of emotion I don't know where or how to begin! ~breathe, just breathe~.........There, I think I'm ready. I have so much going on in my life right now. I haven't shared alot because I have been so busy. But this thing that happened to me today, I have to share with you.

I have been off work due to a work related injury since July of 07. My occupation involves alot of repetitive motion. I work in the auto manufacturing industry. I have worked for my employer for almost 13 years. I have given them many an honest days work. My upper body is a wreck. I have had carpel tunnel in both hands. God blessed me with a fine surgeon who operated on both and I have had great results with them. The same surgeon is also treating me for my elbows. I have bi lateral epicondolitis in both. I have recieved a new treatment in both over the past year. I am now starting physical therapy. I went to my first appointment today. The stretches were strenuous to say the least.

I have also over the years battled IBS. I have had every treatment imaginable for it. My doctor and I both reached the same conclusion that it is mostly work related stress that caused my IBS. I am now certain of it because in the time I have been off work, my symptoms have subsided.

I also suffer from lower back pain. I was told by a chiropractor that my three lowest vertebra were fused together while I was being formed my mothers womb.

I am seeking treatment for my lower back pain and plan on getting some PT for it as well as possible cortisone treatments, either oraly or injections. I see my doctor on Thursday.

I am telling you all of this because I have had a desire to go to school to become a nurse. I have had many people tell me that I would be good at it. My pastor, who I hold in high regard, told me that I should pursue it. I have been out of school for over 20 years! Only by the grace of God can I do this.

I am at a point in my employment where some decisions must be made. I am having to trust doctors and attorneys and myself to make those decisions. I am so glad that God is in control of it all!!!!

This is where the power of love comes in. I have all of the above mentioned on my plate. Yet I have been very happy and optimistic about everything. My family is doing well. I have been blessed by God with many loving friends. My marriage is the best it has ever been. He is so supportive of me!!! And I now have Sparkpeople to help me reach my goal of better health. And yet, today I was attacked. Not everyone will be able to apprieciate what I am about to share, but it was amazing none the less. I was attacked by the enemy. He is very real. But he is powerless against love.

I was in the grocery store this afternoon and suddenly started feeling very badly. I knew I had been through alot with my therapy today, and my back has been bothering me as well. But I got these stabbing pains in my stomach and felt a feeling of fullness in my entire torso. My arms started hurting and I felt very heavy. It wouldn't go away. It was coming in waves. I thought to myself, what is going on? Am I having a heart attack? My 15 year old daughter was with me, thank God. But I am sure she was concerned. We got through the check out and into my vehicle. I had to try to get myself together. I couldn't drive in this condition. I took my jacket off and rested my head on the steering wheel. My poor daughter. She didn't know what to think. She really wanted to go home and get some dinner and do her homework. LOL. I gathered myself as best as I could and started to drive home.

I was not feeling any better. I was scared. I was sick. I needed help!

I love my friends like crazy! I have alot of them! I don't hesitate to reach out to them when I am in need. Well, I was in serious need! I have a dear friend named Tina who I had just talked to on the phone not an hour before this happened. She also knows all of what I am going through. I grabbed my cell phone and pushed a button and she was there!!!!!! Praise God!!!!!

As soon as I spoke, she knew something was wrong. She talked me through it. She started praying and calling out to God for me. She reassured me that I was going to be ok.

I live in a very hilly part of the state. I am forever dropping calls in these hills. There is a certain part of a road that I travel to get home that always causes me to drop a call. I told my friend that we were getting close to that part of the road and to not worry if the call got dropped.........guess what, the call DID NOT GET DROPPED!!!!! She was able to stay with me all the way home!!!!!

When I finally got home, we kept talking. She is so sweet and is kind and loving. She is studieing to be a nurse also. She also works at the same place I do. So, she knows me! I thanked her for being there for me. I told her she was going to make a fine nurse someday. I said mabey she could even become a doctor! At that very moment, when I started speaking into her life and her future. When I started lifting her up, my pain vanished. Just like that. As quickly as it came, it left. It had to leave. Satan's weapons are no match for God's weapons. Satan is powerless against the love of God.

I don't know exactly what the cause of my distress was from. Did I eat the wrong thing? Was the enemy trying to remind me of my old battle with my stomach? Was it just fatiuge from my physical therapy? Was it I just push myself too hard sometimes? Was it an anxiety attack? I know that the attack was real. Just like our enemy is real. He will attack us in our weakness. But he is powerless against the love of God!!!!!!

I am sharing this with you because, I want you to know that the attacks are real, the enemy is real, but, God is greater than all of these things.

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  • no profile photo CD3048897
    Seems like you laready got a lot of in put so i will just pray a blessing over you !
    4615 days ago
  • SKINNYNANNY
    Lori
    God is in control, and I just got my associates degree at 45 and continue to work toward my bachelors. I know that you can do this. I am still up at 1:30 a.m. studying for a spanish test tomorrow eve. I work full time, am active in my church, have 4 kids and 3 grandkids. I also used to suffer from anxiety attacks. I wrote a blog about worry and also being creative to help us de stress. God gives us gifts, talents, and friends, he connects us at SP, and as a TINA also, i know that God places others in our lives for a reason. What happened to you does sound a lot like the anxiety attacks that I used to have. BUt I wouldn't just assume that is what it was, I went and got a total physical recently. Stress does affect us in many strange ways, and Satan does attack; but I wanted to make sure that I was not ignoring something important. My brother died last year at 50, not knowing that he had a heart condition that was never diagnosed.
    so keep the faith, and pray the enemy away; WHILE you take care of yourself! please let us know how it turns out. My stress test came out fine, and I went a little further with a heart scan just to make sure, cause of what happened with my brother unexpectedly.
    I am praying for all your symptoms and healing in your body. and endurance in your life! Remember to take care of you while you do all the other things.
    we have missed you! so glad you are back!
    skinnynanny
    4616 days ago
  • SUNNYGAL2018
    ((((Lori))))) so so glad that your friend(Gods angel for u) was there and could talk you thru your episode.. to be able to make it home safely with your daughter...
    I will share with you a 'recap' of what i went thru about a mth ago... 3 different times.. i to had what i called an 'episode'.... numbness in my right arm/hand.. tingling... severe pain in my chest..... and smothering.. i just could NOT breathe.. either thru my nose or my mouth... completely to the point i even went outside and just tried to breathe in fresh air... i couldnt lay down in our bed (which i still have to use 3 huge pillows even now to do so).... anyhow.. after the 3rd attack .. i drove myself to the ER.. where after a catscan.. the doc told me i had a mild heart attack at some point.. and there were some suspicious spots on my lungs.. which could be blood clots causing the smothering i was experiencing..
    so i was admitted into the hospital (first time EVER as we do NOT have health insurance).. for 2 days.. which i had to be transported by ambulance to another hospital and a stress test done and 2 MRI/s... i was so scared and all i could do was pray pray pray that somehow.. it was NOT blood clots or my heart.. well God had mercy on me.. becuz the test all showed OK.. and it was NOT my heart nor any blood clots...
    i then did a follow up with my own family doc (whom i never see unless im VERY ill)... and he told me again.. AMY... YOU are under a huge amt of STRESS and anxiety attacks plus severe acid reflux.. along with high blood pressure.. anyhow.. so now im on meds daily for all of it...
    I share this with you becuz... stress CAN cause ALOT of medical issues.. and i for one.. wouldve never thought that i would have the problems i now do.... Im NO doctor.. but please do consider getting a check up/followup for this episode you had my friend. I dont want to 'scare' you.. but its just that even though now i owe a HUGE medical bill.. at least i have the peace of mind that it wasnt as bad as it couldve been...
    you take care and TRY to find some 'me' time to relax and destress.. believe me.. i KNOW that is hard to do...
    I will be praying for you daily and im glad that God is there with you to defeat the Devil!!!
    God bless
    your friend
    amy/sunnytngal
    4616 days ago
  • ELLE299
    okay Lori, now for the very real part of life. I have great faith in God, which is why I am telling you this. Many times we ignore the message from God thinking it is something else. Maybe it was God sending you the message that something is wrong. He provided the means for you and your daughter to get home safely when you ignored the message to get to the hospital. He has given you a second chance to seek the help that I truly believe you need. That does not sound like something you ate; it sounds like a warning; heart attacks in women are different from men. Mine was what they call a "silent attack". Until I was going through pre -op I didn't even know I had a heart attack. God does not always give you a second chance - maybe you need to re-think the source of the message over. Much Love ~Elle~
    4616 days ago
  • MOMZILLA52
    Lori, thank God that He put your friend in the right place when you were being spiritually attacked. Lately, you said that you are growing closer to the Lord, we have joined forces in taking his servants, our loved ones,back and away from him, and he hates us that we join in prayer against him. That is what we do when we pray for the lost, the unsaved. Those belong to him and he fights back. When that happens, I start singing, because I cant always pray. I sing Jesus loves me, this I know, for the Bible tells me so, little ones to Him belong, we are weak, but He is strong! That is the only song I can think of. Yes, spiritual attacks are strong and real, and the closer you get to strength in the Lord, the more it seems like we get them. But, we have power in the blood of Jesus, the evil one has no right to us, we are born again, spirit filled believers who are doing God's will. Rest Lori, be quiet in Him and praise Him for all the good in your life that He has provided for you. Ask for Him to cover you in His blood to protect your against spiritual attacks. We are at war with the enemy and he knows his time is short!

    Love you my dear friend and know that you are kept in prayers, along with all your loved ones.
    Kat
    4616 days ago
  • LUVMYORKIES
    Praise the Lord, Lori!!! I am still so touched by your experience. God is so awesome!! I love you so much and am honored to be your friend. Tina is an angel for talking you through your time of need. God is always with you, and will always protect you from evil. Satan is NO MATCH for Gods LOVE!! I love that you overcame the fear and pain. Now, breathe dear friend, and have a blessed night.

    Love and Hugs always and forever!
    Cat
    4616 days ago
  • GRACED_BY_GOD
    Praise God who causes us to have victory over the enemy! What a beautiful testimony! Thank you for sharing that! The power of love is astounding!

    Hugs,
    Carolyn
    4616 days ago
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