The Power of Love
Monday, April 07, 2008
I am so full of emotion I don't know where or how to begin! ~breathe, just breathe~.........There, I think I'm ready. I have so much going on in my life right now. I haven't shared alot because I have been so busy. But this thing that happened to me today, I have to share with you.
I have been off work due to a work related injury since July of 07. My occupation involves alot of repetitive motion. I work in the auto manufacturing industry. I have worked for my employer for almost 13 years. I have given them many an honest days work. My upper body is a wreck. I have had carpel tunnel in both hands. God blessed me with a fine surgeon who operated on both and I have had great results with them. The same surgeon is also treating me for my elbows. I have bi lateral epicondolitis in both. I have recieved a new treatment in both over the past year. I am now starting physical therapy. I went to my first appointment today. The stretches were strenuous to say the least.
I have also over the years battled IBS. I have had every treatment imaginable for it. My doctor and I both reached the same conclusion that it is mostly work related stress that caused my IBS. I am now certain of it because in the time I have been off work, my symptoms have subsided.
I also suffer from lower back pain. I was told by a chiropractor that my three lowest vertebra were fused together while I was being formed my mothers womb.
I am seeking treatment for my lower back pain and plan on getting some PT for it as well as possible cortisone treatments, either oraly or injections. I see my doctor on Thursday.
I am telling you all of this because I have had a desire to go to school to become a nurse. I have had many people tell me that I would be good at it. My pastor, who I hold in high regard, told me that I should pursue it. I have been out of school for over 20 years! Only by the grace of God can I do this.
I am at a point in my employment where some decisions must be made. I am having to trust doctors and attorneys and myself to make those decisions. I am so glad that God is in control of it all!!!!
This is where the power of love comes in. I have all of the above mentioned on my plate. Yet I have been very happy and optimistic about everything. My family is doing well. I have been blessed by God with many loving friends. My marriage is the best it has ever been. He is so supportive of me!!! And I now have Sparkpeople to help me reach my goal of better health. And yet, today I was attacked. Not everyone will be able to apprieciate what I am about to share, but it was amazing none the less. I was attacked by the enemy. He is very real. But he is powerless against love.
I was in the grocery store this afternoon and suddenly started feeling very badly. I knew I had been through alot with my therapy today, and my back has been bothering me as well. But I got these stabbing pains in my stomach and felt a feeling of fullness in my entire torso. My arms started hurting and I felt very heavy. It wouldn't go away. It was coming in waves. I thought to myself, what is going on? Am I having a heart attack? My 15 year old daughter was with me, thank God. But I am sure she was concerned. We got through the check out and into my vehicle. I had to try to get myself together. I couldn't drive in this condition. I took my jacket off and rested my head on the steering wheel. My poor daughter. She didn't know what to think. She really wanted to go home and get some dinner and do her homework. LOL. I gathered myself as best as I could and started to drive home.
I was not feeling any better. I was scared. I was sick. I needed help!
I love my friends like crazy! I have alot of them! I don't hesitate to reach out to them when I am in need. Well, I was in serious need! I have a dear friend named Tina who I had just talked to on the phone not an hour before this happened. She also knows all of what I am going through. I grabbed my cell phone and pushed a button and she was there!!!!!! Praise God!!!!!
As soon as I spoke, she knew something was wrong. She talked me through it. She started praying and calling out to God for me. She reassured me that I was going to be ok.
I live in a very hilly part of the state. I am forever dropping calls in these hills. There is a certain part of a road that I travel to get home that always causes me to drop a call. I told my friend that we were getting close to that part of the road and to not worry if the call got dropped.........guess what, the call DID NOT GET DROPPED!!!!! She was able to stay with me all the way home!!!!!
When I finally got home, we kept talking. She is so sweet and is kind and loving. She is studieing to be a nurse also. She also works at the same place I do. So, she knows me! I thanked her for being there for me. I told her she was going to make a fine nurse someday. I said mabey she could even become a doctor! At that very moment, when I started speaking into her life and her future. When I started lifting her up, my pain vanished. Just like that. As quickly as it came, it left. It had to leave. Satan's weapons are no match for God's weapons. Satan is powerless against the love of God.
I don't know exactly what the cause of my distress was from. Did I eat the wrong thing? Was the enemy trying to remind me of my old battle with my stomach? Was it just fatiuge from my physical therapy? Was it I just push myself too hard sometimes? Was it an anxiety attack? I know that the attack was real. Just like our enemy is real. He will attack us in our weakness. But he is powerless against the love of God!!!!!!
I am sharing this with you because, I want you to know that the attacks are real, the enemy is real, but, God is greater than all of these things.