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Was feeling good, but.....

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

I tried adding a new blog entry twice last night, and for some reason, it wasn't going through, and I lost it both times. I was excited to share my news about how I looked in my bathing suit this year. For the first time in a very long time, I actually felt THIN. My best friend held up a 'before' picture of me in my bathing suit from last year, and as I stared at myself in the mirror, I was stunned at the comparison. I was ecstatic to share with everyone that hard work does really pay off, and how I had a renewed sense of determination. I even cleverly ended my blog with my new favorite signature line..."It is not enough to want something badly; We must believe that we can obtain it." Then in all capital letters I put, "and guess what? WE CAN!"

It was a very exciting and encouraging blog entry, and I was anxious to share it in the hopes of inspiring others who have hit a plateau, or who are getting bored or tired or frustrated with this whole process. Well, I weighed in tonight, and now I'm the one who needs the motivation. I gained two pounds this week!!!

I know holidays are tough for people like us to get through, but I had exercised every day this week. I suppose I got over confident and thought that since I was exercising, I could eat what I wanted and get away with it. NOT SO! I have always had trouble on weekends anyway, even when it's not a holiday, and it never ceases to amaze me how two bad days can undo a whole week's worth of hard work.

I was very down after weighing in, and I ate three brownies today. (GASP!) I know. I know. NOT the answer to my problem. Which is why I have come here to journal about it. I must learn from it, and remind myself about how good I felt when I saw myself in that bathing suit. I didn't think I was an emotional eater, but I have realized that YES, I am! When I'm disgusted or down or angry, I want to eat. But guess what? There's a flip side to that coin, because when I saw myself in that suit and felt good about my accomplishments, it had the opposite effect! The last thing I wanted to do was eat something bad for me! I didn't want to hinder my progress, and in fact, I even wanted to go work out!

So now, my new method of motivation is going to be a check list. I am going to go back to the beginning and re-read my goals and what I had hoped to achieve from losing weight. And I'm going to check off those things that I've accomplished so far! So even when I'm feeling down, or I've had a bad weekend, I can see it in black and white that I AM making a difference in my life, and I AM succeeding. The proof was in the mirror, and now that I know I can do it, I want to put the scale and the brownies behind me and move ahead to the next point in my life when I can feel that same excitement.

I'm going to copy this journal entry and try to paste it as a blog entry in hopes that it might encourage even one person. Challenge yourselves to think of new ways to find self motivation every single day. Refocus on your ultimate goals, and BELIEVE THAT YOU CAN ACHIEVE!
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  • PUTTITAT
    YAY! Isn't it fun to see your progress? And then we trip over ourselves and show we sre human! Sometimes I wonder if that is just God's way of letting us know we are not there yet, and we still need to keep the focus. I know how you feel with the gain--I gained too! emoticon I figured I would, since we had our Bon Voyage BBQ on Monday, but it still frustrates me! Your blog was a reminder to me that I need to pick myself up and keep pushing myself. No, it is NOT an easy road--we have to push ourselves--and sometimes it means pushing hard. We ARE going to do it!
    Vicki
    4702 days ago
  • CATIATM
    Hmmm .... I've been there many, many times. First of all, WHOO HOO on your success! To not want to convert to Islam and hide under a burqha when confronted with swimsuits is a major victory! Sometimes we lose sight of our progress, and it's great that you can see the difference a year makes! Now, about the weight gain, we've discussed this on several teams. Sometimes, the body holds on to weight, whether to build muscle, or because it's inflamed from tough workouts, or just to much sodium. It's not the end of the world. In fact, very few people just lose weight. ... And those people are men! Women tend to lose 5, gain 3, lose 4, gain 2, and so on. The overall trend is downward, and that's terrific! About those brownies ... you know that wasn't the right thing to do. Forgive yourself, and move on. Don't let it derail your success!

    So, in summary, emoticon job, emoticon with the swimsuit, and emoticon well done, you!
    4702 days ago
  • FOREVERGREENE
    Many of us have experienced this. And you have shared something personal which will inspire others.

    Focus on the good. Know you can do it.

    Remember the feeling of success.

    Success is a glowing aura around you.

    keep it up!

    Thanks for sharing.
    --dg emoticon
    4702 days ago
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