Wednesday, June 11, 2008
I am noticing that there is more I want out of my life. This whole new lifestyle has given me a new outlook and I have realized I don't just want to wake up one morning and be 75 years old with nothing to show for it. I do the same stuff everyday, there is little excitement and nothing in the way of change. How frustrating!!!
I wake up, go to work, go to school, go home, go to bed. This is five days in my week. On the weekends, we clean, do groceries and maybe once in awhile take the kids somewhere fun like Chuck E. Cheese or something. But that's it. I want more. Is it selfish if I demand more?
I want time with my hubby alone once in a while. I love him deeply and I hate to think that by the time I make time for us, it will be too late. I want to travel to Vegas with him, Ireland, hell, even Six Flags which is two hours from here. Something, anything. I want to splurge once in a while instead of only ever paying off the bills. What is wrong with me and where is this coming from? It is really making me depressed to think that this is and has been my life up to now. Yicks!!!