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Wednesday, June 11, 2008

I am noticing that there is more I want out of my life. This whole new lifestyle has given me a new outlook and I have realized I don't just want to wake up one morning and be 75 years old with nothing to show for it. I do the same stuff everyday, there is little excitement and nothing in the way of change. How frustrating!!!

I wake up, go to work, go to school, go home, go to bed. This is five days in my week. On the weekends, we clean, do groceries and maybe once in awhile take the kids somewhere fun like Chuck E. Cheese or something. But that's it. I want more. Is it selfish if I demand more?

I want time with my hubby alone once in a while. I love him deeply and I hate to think that by the time I make time for us, it will be too late. I want to travel to Vegas with him, Ireland, hell, even Six Flags which is two hours from here. Something, anything. I want to splurge once in a while instead of only ever paying off the bills. What is wrong with me and where is this coming from? It is really making me depressed to think that this is and has been my life up to now. Yicks!!!
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  • no profile photo CD1834472
    I know EXACTLY how you feel. Been there, Done that, Got the Tee shirt. Here are my suggestions:
    1. Be grateful for what you have in your life right now. A Husband you love, children you love, a career you are pursuing. Spark people helping you get the figure you want. You have so much of the important thing in place. You need to slow it right down and take things in part-axe. You are feeling overwhelmed.you need to use your planner and journal section and work out all the things that are causing you stress, one at a time, each under a different heading and ask yourself 'How can I change this one thing and be more creative with it and make it more enjoyable for yourself. You will be amazed at the answers you mind will come up with. Amazed. then take them one at a time until you get all those areas the way you want them. Start with the morning time before you go to work. and work from there. Get each part right.Then tackle your Budget and do the same with that.....
    One day I hope you do get to Ireland and Please God we shall meet up and have a good chinwag emoticon
    4522 days ago
  • no profile photo CD2948406
    Well give yourself a break hun! You are working full time and getting a degree that will advance your career options and eventually double your future earnings. You are planning the future you want RIGHT NOW but you have to have some delayed gratification. I got my Masters last May and just finished my first year in my doctorate program. My husband is the main provider and I work part-time. Its tough as we just bought our first house but I keep telling myself its all worth it. We have time for each other and because we do not have kids yet, we do get to spoil ourselves but its hard to get in quality time even now so I cant imagine what it will be like when we do have kids. Just continue to make the of the time you do have when you are together. Yeah eaiser said then done. My husband is watching TV and I am eating and sparking. BUt just think, you are going to have a fantastic degree behind your name which is going to be so cool!!!!
    4525 days ago
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