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Mental Road Block

Sunday, June 15, 2008

This is the first time since March that I've just wanted to eat the whole house. I know a big part of it is because of the situation I am in so I guess that's a good thing. I'm aware of everything around me and the more I try to better myself it seems the more certain people in my life~one's I'm kinda stuck with until the fall~act like complete asses to me. And to be honest it just pisses me off to no end. =*(

Posting this blog for my reference~I'm realizing I love to be a support for others but can't seem to ask for support without feeling weak or selfish...and I now know where I got that mindset from. So more forgiving myself and those in my past is on my plate. If I can just keep myself to this plate and not fall apart and look for more plates I'll be okay. I keep telling myself I'll be okay it's just hard. The person who meant so much to me is not in my life anymore but that person was the catalyst for me realizing I needed to find myself and love me.....I just wish it didn't hurt so much when he gave up on *us*....on me. =*(

Okay~that's my pity party~I am going to go clean up the garbage laying around and send my party guest (myself) to bed. Party's over.

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    Honey, I feel your pain. Been there and wouldn't go there again if I ever had to. Sometimes the only thing you can do when it hurts so bad is breathe. The pain wants to take your breath away but you just have to sit there and take in one slow breath after another. I also did alot of reading to distract myself. Just mindless stuff but it put me in another place until I could handle the one I was really in. Let me know if you need a boost. Sheryl
    4515 days ago
    Thank you for sharing things I have thought too. It helps me with my motivation. I have been disappointed countless times and have given up more times than I can remember. Things like you have posted help me to keep on going.
    4515 days ago
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