Some days life sucks

Ever had a day that was going...so-so...not horrible, but not great and youre thinking to yourself "Tomorrow will be better" and then something happens that slams you into the tears and depression?

I just had that.

Its not bad enough that Im dealing with Rabid not being here every day, with this job not only am I dealing with my lonliness (I will adjust) but also having to keep her spirits up. So she calls me and asks if I can bring her a Diet Dew or water. So I called and asked if she could meet me out front so I wouldnt have to get out. She never called back so I had to get dressed (Its hot as hell here and one of our AC's broke 3 days ago, the one in our room) So I struggled into clothing, grabbed a dew and water and took them to her.

When I went in the girl behind the counter must have been dropped on her head 5 or 6 times becz I asked for Rabid and she looked at me like no one was there with that name. She went to the back and the owner said "Shes out back" ok...so Im standing in the restaurant, in a shabby sundress, my hair pinned haphazardly in a bun, (straggles and GRAY), havent shaved my legs in DAYS, look like something the dog decided wasnt good enough to drag in and the teenaged boys that are sitting at the tables PLAYING GAMES (not eating!) staring a hole in my rather LARGE behind. So Kristy comes out, I give her the liquids and come home, not to far to drive, but Im sticky, hot and tired.

I step out of the car thinking "Im going to check the mail" and this HEATHEN from next door, on his (or her...couldnt tell , the little red neck could be either) bike and YELLS from the middle of the road at about the MIDDLE of my yard (so maybe 20 feet frrom me) yells "FATSO!" I blinked, I couldnt believe some child was raised in this manner and I said "What?! Excuse me?!" and this CHILD flipped the bird at me! I said "Excuse me?" Then I said probably the dumbest thing, I said "Grow up!" I WANTED to shout profanities! I WANTED to say "Go tell your parents what you just said and did, bcz Im going to tell them." Instead this BRAT turned and road into their drive way (OUR HORRIBLE neighbors that torment our dogs, trespass on out property etc and then come over wanting us to BUY things when the school is selling them!) and I came inside and burst into tears.

Its times like this I just want to go in, bake a batch of brownies and EAT. Ive lost 50 lbs or more since starting (before SP came into my life). I CANT see it, I see NO changes and then this.... :*(

I think I just want to quit now ......gonna have a good cry...