I cannot believe it has been almost 1 year! I couldn't believe it when I first realized I had reached my goal weight, hell I was still figuring out what my goal weight was when I reached and someone told me I had done it. It all happened so fast I was seriously worried I was sick or something! But after a year I figured out I'm not sick, but I did need to lose the weight slower and healthier than I did, so I spent some major time adjusting and catching up to what I had done. Basically I found out through using SparkPeople that I wasn't eating enough. I think I figured out that I was eating 1000 calories a day and burning 3000-4000 a day, thus why I was losing 5 pounds+ a week for months.
So I used SparkPeople to straighten that all out and now use it to make sure I eat enough and let me know what is working for me to maintain. And I use SparkPeople for all the great people I meet and am privileged to talk with. I even inspired some people, how I kinda know but am not willing to admit to because well it is just not me. I am hard pressed not to find the answers I need to find on SparkPeople and for that it is a great place and website, it is my third place many times so to say!
My liver problem was an eye opener for me as well and let me know that my exercising was unhealthy at the rate I was doing it. Again I found myself lost and feeling kicked in the head for doing what I thought was a good thing for myself but you know what they say about to much of a good thing. So that really caused me to look at what I was doing and again get a real plan, not just me again making it up as I went.
So physically I think I am doing pretty good so this next year I am going to try and work harder on both my mental and spiritual side more. I am a much more positive person now and am learning to love myself, for if I cannot say I love me then how do I expect others to say it to me or to love me. I know my wife and daughters love me and need me and that I have been a bit caught up in my own world not only with my healthy lifestyle but also my work. I have made some major cutbacks on my demands at work already to address this issue and am now working on a plan to be more of a part of my girls lives.
My daughters are 4 and 6 and I do not want to miss anything about them growing up since they have already grown so fast and I know they will be gone before I know it so I am really going to find the balance in order to appreciate what I have and not let them or the experience get away from me or I will regret it for the rest of my life!
My wife and I are needing to really spend more time connecting both with our daughters and without. I must admit I spend allot of time bitching about how we never do anything and then with the weight loss I kinda just was in my own world not caring about it anymore but now know that I have been missing this and fear that if I let it continue I could lose her and that would crush me to say the least. She also has issue with my weight loss for she feels she may not be worthy of me anymore. I try like crazy to let her know she is the only one for me but as the great Yoda says"Do or do not, their is no try!" So I just must do it and make sure she is my focus and that she knows it. I really love her and have just been so caught up in my own life that it has caused it to be just that, my own life not our life.
So that is my goal for the next year, but as I have learned from my past experience I shouldn't really try to make it up as I go so this time I am going to research things better and have a plan as best I can to make my family my focus and the large part of my balance in life. Wish me luck for this I think will be much harder to plan out than anything else I have done, I will try and not over think it but instead just plan it out and let it happen.
I will post my plan once I have it done.