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Tuesday, November 18, 2008


it's been a while since i've posted a blog. heck, it's been a while since i've really been consistent with logging into sparkpeople. here's what's up...

so the week before i went to miami, i wasn't feelin so well, and was super busy/stressed, gettin everything ready for the trip. so i hardly went to the gym that week. then, i went to miami for a week... that resulted in "vacation eating" and not exercising. when i got back from miami, i had gained... i'll be honest here... 7 pounds. it upset me. i ended up making excuses to not go to the gym, and was giving in to treats more than i normally do. i ended up telling my boyfriend that i thought it would be better if we stopped seeing eachother because i didn't want to start a serious relationship with someone who was hardly ever going to be around. (he joined the Navy and left for bootcamp on Nov.3rd.) he understood, but it just sucked because it's a breakup basically due to circumstance/timing. we're keeping in touch, because i mean, we were friends before anything, but still, it's been hard. i started getting so stressed out about everything, that it started to trigger my anxiety. my body doesn't react well to stress, AT ALL, and i started having stomach problems. so bad, that i started to wonder if i had suddenly become lactose intolerant. then, i told myself last week that i had to get my ass back to the gym. i was actually getting a lil anxiety about going back because i was embarrassed and felt like all the gym regulars were going to be like, what the hell happened to you?! but, regardless, i got myself to the gym 4 times last week, and i felt okay, but my head wasn't in it. then, last thursday, i lifted, did my cardio, and realized that i had forgotten something very, VERY important... exercise helps relieve and ward off stress. because i wasn't exercising, everything was getting to me, and i was stressing. the stressing lead to anxiety. the anxiety lead to feeling guilty. guilty can lead to eating. eating leads to where i've BEEN... and i always said i'm never going back...

SO. on that note, i went grocery shopping on sunday night, picked myself up the most recent Hers Muscle & Fitness, and decided that i had my mind right. i'm back. i'm feeling very focused and disciplined, and it feels good. i started doing supersets, and my muscles are killing me, but it feels SO GOOD! i love this feeling. i'm confident i will lose the 7 vacation pounds soon, and i will then head for 135. all i know is i want to get back to 140, as soon as possible, i want to keep challenging myself... gotta stay strong.

so i fell in a rut. we all do, once in a while. this was my first rut since i began this journey back in 2006, so i'd say, i'm doin alright.

ATTITUDE AND HARD WORK... i'm backkkk!

i have to thank you all for your support, thoughts, and kind words. i can't explain how much it means to me. i hope you all are doing well.

much love,
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    Glad your back Wendi!! Your right it's always a struggle. I believe it will always be just like it is for an alcoholic or drug addict. Food is just as much of an addiction. It's easy to fall off the wagon once you do it once or twice but I'm glad you picked yourself up and your back on track!! :)
    Hope you had a fabulous Thanksgiving!!!!

    4272 days ago
    It's so good to have you back!!! I was starting to worry about you.

    So sorry about your breakup. It's hard I know! Stay strong.

    You look fabulous! Keep up the great work! You rock!!
    4281 days ago
  • MJOHNS0912
    AWESOME! I can totally relate and that has happened to me many times before. Great job on just admitting it moving forward and getting back on track. Exercise is key and that's awesome that you were able to get back into it with full force.
    4281 days ago
    I came across your page. You've come so far! Way to go and great job for stopping yourself from going back to where you've been! It takes a lot to be honest with yourself, get on the scale, admit the gain, and take steps to get back to a consistent healthy eating and exercising routine. So, kudos to you!!
    4281 days ago
  • CRISTINA1224
    4282 days ago
    I'm so sorry you've had such a rough time. I'm glad you're back with us all and working out again, keep your chin up stay strong and positive. You can do this.

    emoticon Jasmine

    4283 days ago
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