time to start over
Monday, December 29, 2008
A year later and I'm almost exactly back where I started. Seriously. One pound less than May 2007. It's depressing. I managed to keep weight off, if not lose weight, until February. Then things became too stressful and I turned to food instead of facing my problems. From February to May I really packed on the pounds thanks to overeating and no exercise. I set aside the summer to get fit once again, but taking a full load of classes from home foiled my plans.
From August until today I have gained 15 pounds--about one pound for every week of class. Not good at all. (While it's awful, I've done far worse before. One summer I gained 25 lbs.) I just don't know what allows me to come this far before stopping and trying to turn back around. I know I wonder this every single time I try to lose weight, and I still don't know.
What I do know is that I am going to stop letting stress be an excuse to eat. I always wondered if I was a stress eater, and then one day this semester when I found myself eating cottage cheese and maraschino cherries at 3 in the morning I realized that it was true. Food is a coping mechanism for me. If you look at me you see I'm very good at it, too.
So, my plan: I'm going to start making meal menus. I definitely need more structure, and this will take out uncertainty and make grocery shopping much easier. No pop. And the hard one, more vegetables. I like to grocery shop once every two weeks, but I'll be doing that more often now.
As for exercise...I don't know whether I want to buy a fitness pass for this semester. My schedule is crazy tight, but I know that if I don't buy one I won't exercise as much as I need to. I love my WiiFit, but living with four other people ensures that someone is home at all times. The prospect of people walking in on me exercising makes me cringe! Sadly, exercise memberships are not cheap. I don't mind ponying up the $80 for the fitness room, but I know I'll be in EL all summer--do I want to buy the bundled option right now, which includes outdoor pool and group exercise? I will have to think of this some more.
Instead of doing the cheesy start on Jan 1, I'm starting right now. Actually, I started yesterday since it's 2 am. It feels good to have structure again, and to get started planning. Here I go...