Snags R Us!
Monday, January 12, 2009
I am encountering a MAJOR problem here. Many people HATE to exercise, but don't have a hard time transitioning to healthier foods.
I on the other hand, LOVE exercise. I love the burn. I love the sweat. But staying on track with my food? Well...I keep starting at square one.
To make matters worse, I'm realizing now that I am just so darned BEAT after the day, and I haven't even started up with classes again yet! This 'weight loss' everyone is noticing came from 2 weeks of me being off for the holidays with nothing to do but meticulously plan meals, enter them on my food tracker, and exercise. I drank tons of water too.
Now, while I'm managing to pull myself out of bed early in the morning to work out, I am NOT doing so great with tracking my food, which has lead to me sneaking a 'no-no food' here and there, and it's becoming a bit more often than not, especially with my most self destructive thought process of them all:
"Well, I'll burn it off later! I'm exercising now!"
Geez. Louise. Sister. Mary. Francis. Applepie and custard crap. Because cursing is another thing I'm working on..and..can you even curse on SP? ANYWAY, I know how this ends. I eat more, and gain more, even with working out (or I maintain which sucks just as many eggs) I get discouraged and I say "Hey, I'm cute anyway. So what?"
NO NO NO NO NO. That ain't happening. You know why? Because I am so DONE with being unhealthy. I am so DONE with wondering if I hit someone in the face with my butt while trying to squeeze through. I am so DONE with feeling like I'm going to have diabetes and cancer like my grandparents (who really could've prevented at least ONE of those diseases). I am so DONE with only being able to shop at Lane Bryant (whom I love, but I mean come on, it's a total rip off, those clothes....except the pants. They are BANGIN') and I am so DONE with wishing I were smaller so I could wear more modest clothing without looking like I'm donning a mu-mu. I am just so DONE with...with being DONE...with being fat. I am NOT going to go down like that.