WOW I FORGOT I HAD LOST WEIGHT!!
Friday, January 23, 2009
Hi Spark Friends!
My weekly weigh in this week showed a whopping one half pound loss. Yes, I know not the exact number I was hoping for but it beats gaining! A loss is a loss. I went to visit my cousin today and she has a wii fit. I have wanted one for so long! Just can't afford to spend the money on that right now. Anyway, we did it together and it was so much fun! There is a hula hoop exercise which I did well on. Surprisingly! All kinds of cardio and strength training to do. I worked up a good sweat. Anyway, when you first get on your signed on as a guest. So you go thru a little information gathering section. Well there I was and this game asked my age my height, then it showed me my BMI. Then it asked me top hold still while it registered my weight. I must have turned five shades of red and my heart started pounding fast because in my mind I still weighed 197 pounds and Oh My God now my cousin and Aunt were going to see that number and know how much I have let my self go! The shame and embarrassment was overwhelming to say the least. I wanted to step off and make a run for my car and never look back!
Then it showed my weight of 154 pounds. I was SOOOOO relieved! I was like oh yeah I have lost weight! duh! It was so weird because I had been that 197 for so long that I still mentally thought I was still there. I always was embarrassed and ashamed of how I had let myself go. I NEVER told anyone my weight. It was a relief to remember I had made progress in my weight loss. I mean I know I have but standing on that wii scale at that moment waiting to see my weight in front of people brought all those old feelings rushing back to me. I NEVER want to be that number again. I wanted to share this experience with all of you, my spark friends because I think that it is important that we all remember feeling that way from time to time. It certainly made me realize how much I hated being so overweight. That is truly motivating for me! Perhaps a flash back to the old us from time to time is what may help us all continue our journey forward to a healthier person. It really made me want to do my very best to continue my journey forward. Those feelings were horrible and I never want to feel that way again. So just think back to how you felt when you began this journey and know that the only way to never feel that way again is to keep moving forward in becoming healthier. So when we get unmotivated or blah about our new lifestyle just think back to the alternative of not moving forward. It is a HUGE motivator for me and I hope it will be for you too! So lets all continue moving towards a healthier us and keep those old feelings in the past! By the way, I was really proud to have them see my new weight once it hit me that I am no longer 197. That was a much nicer feeling! Have a wonderful weekend everyone.
Have any of you had a moment where you thought you still were at your beginning weight even tho you have lost weight?