Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Last night I fought the chocolate beast! We had pizza for dinner. I had been craving pizza so I saved enough points to have it for dinner. Then after dinner all I wanted was chocolate. I knew if I didn't have some chocolate I would start eating everything else to satisfy the chocolate craving. So, I ate one Hershey's kiss that have been in the cupboard since Christmas when I made cookies. It still wasn't enough but I did not want to eat any more of those. I had one WW chocolate ice cream bar left so I ate that and then I was ok. I went to the bedroom to watch Biggest Loser and I did not eat anymore that night. I used 5 of my bonus points today but I think I did ok what with all the cravings and battles..lol. Weight loss really is a battle everyday but I can do this. I am not going to quit on myself and I am not giving in to excuses. I will find solutions to my problems/issues...ones that work for me. On BL last night, I could not believe what that orange team guy said. I won't say anymore in case someone has not watched it yet.
One thing I plan on doing is stocking up on WW pizza dinners or LC pizza dinners and WW frozen chocolate bars. Seems to me the things I crave most are pizza and chocolate. So, I want to be ready for them.
I am amazed how much time I spend thinking about food. I have been consciously trying to divert my attention from thinking about food when I realize I am doing it. It really is an addiction and a pacifier for whatever.
Change does not come easy but little by little I can do it. Self-realization is a big part of it too I think. We can all do this.