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2009, February 1st

Sunday, February 01, 2009

I wonder about myself... a lot to be quite honest. I was doing so well... Moving on, letting go of the bitterness, and now I just feel horrible. Upset, and it's like physical pain, and I don't know why. Why can't I just control for once? Not like control control but just not let my feelings run away like they always do? I just feel like crap right now and...I just want these feeling to go away....

I know most of you have no idea what I'm talking about... and that's okay. Honestly, I don't know who I'm missing right now... I don't know if it's him or what my problem is... I mean, it's been almost 5 years since Grandma died....I shouldn't be upset about this right now....

I feel so broken... so ... lost.

This is gonna be a long week.... :/
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    Hang in there, sweetheart!!!! I'm a very emotional person and even moreso at different times in my cycle. You should try sometime to chart when you feel okay and strong and times when you feel like the world is caving in. I do the same thing... the extreme highs, the extreme lows.... your normal. I would bet money on anything that it's just a change in your hormones as your body goes through it's natural female cycle. Try to workout as much as you can, get in the sunshine when you can find some, listen go upbeat music and journal if it helps you work out your thoughts. I totally understand! I go through times where I am nearly in tears because I just want my Mom to hug me.... and she lives 20 miles away but I act like I've lost her forever. Haha. It's crazy what emotions can do. Try to not let them get the best of you if you can - but I know from experience that it's hard not to. Take some time for yourself - to read, take walks, take a bubble bath, get coffee with a girlfriend, etc. Probably by next week you'll be feeling on top of the world again! *BIGGESTHUGSANDLOVE*
    4403 days ago
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