Tuesday, February 03, 2009
I was so pumped on Sunday during that nail biting game lol. I ended up eating 4 chicken wings, some crackers & pepperoni slices, celery & carrot sticks. NO ALCOHOL!!! I had 2 beers before the game but I was so busy between watchin the game & taking care of guests, I never even drank!
I haven't logged in for a couple days due to a huge bump in my road. My aunt whom I am very close to is in stage 4 of her battle with lung & brain cancer, & I have been seriously depressed because she has taken a turn for the worse. We talk three times a day & I just can't even imagine my life without her in it. She is who I vent to, she is who I look forward to talking to every day, she is the only "real" friend I have that I completely trust, & soon, I will lose her. So I have been sulking & being miserable, hardly eating, so my body is in starvation mode, hoarding all that fat. I weighed myself on Friday & I was down a pound from what my ticker said, but I didnt change my weight because my weigh in day is Monday & I knew SuperBowl was coming. So I decided to wait til Monday to count the weight. Well, I gained a pound. So between the gain & my aunt being very sick, I have again let myself go.
However, today she sent me an email kickin my ass to get back to it! So, I am here, & I am ready to forget the pound I gained, & lose it by weekend!! I havent drank my water but will get back on track with that tomorrow. I am going to try not to slip into the depression I have been in over my aunt, because I know she doesnt want that for me. She wants to see pics of a healthy me before she dies, & I am back to do it!!!
Gonna go feed Mia & hope she lets me at least get on my bike for half an hour. Went & picked on McDonalds for the kids, they hadnt had it forever, & I was proud of myself. I ordered a salad!!!! First time ever (from there)! yay!