That dang horse
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
OMG, I was thrown from my high horse last night. I begin to think that I have this thing under control and I cannot fail ... then splat. Last night it was Pizza Hut delivery that spooked us. I had already stopped at the store on the way home from a long day (in a long week) at work to find that I was an ingredient short for my husband's dinner (we don't eat the same, I'm veg and he's not). Too tired to go back out with nothing else to throw together I decided to go online to Pizza Hut. Then instead of cooking my original healthy dinner I said 'what the h#$#' and ordered one for me, too. This wasn't necessary and not planned when I logged on. It wasn't even tastier food than I had planned, the treat was that I just didn't have to cook it or clean up afterwards. And, just so I hit that ground hard, I ate way too much and dumped in a rum and diet (heavy on the rum) for good measure. Even after deciding on the pizza I could have made some better decisions to make the meal healthier. The times in the last 9 months that I have crashed like this mostly went the same way due to a lack of planning. (To my credit, I did try to plan ahead but missed) It's almost always less about temptation and more about convenience. Since I know this you would think I would know better than to let this happen. It would be much too easy to drag myself down into my old habits and become my old self if I'm not mindful every day.
Now it's brush off my butt and back in the saddle. I feel bad about myself this morning even though I know I'm not supposed too. In an attempt to repair the damage I'm going to try to stay at the lower end of my recommended calories, but not below, until I weigh in on Sunday. And, I'm leaving for work early so I can stop at the grocery store. I'm leaving that high horse at home.