Little Bitch Session
Friday, February 06, 2009
Just a little bitch session - but seriously, sometimes I wonder if David (my boyfriend) really understands me or pays attention to me. He does very nice things, don't get me wrong, and he's very helpful and loving but I don't know if he really "gets" me... or if I just have to keep beating him over the head with things until he does "get" it.
For example.... I had had some severe hip pain, felt like it was in the joint. It hurt to stand, to walk, I couldn't do exercises that required me to stand and put a lot of pressure on my left hip. I was thinking arthritis and that I was going to need to go to the dr' and all that. I was complaining about it on a daily basis. Then it went away and I didn't comment on the pain going away, I just didn't comment on the pain at all any more. David never asked about my hip, didn't ask if it bothered me still, how way my pain, etc. So, I read an article and it says that the kind of pain I had been experiencing wasn't arthritis and probably was bursitis so I forwarded that to David. As you can see he says "Hopefully it is just temporary for you..." Well, DUH! Of course it is temporary - I haven't had any! I even used the past tense for the initial email... "...what I had in my hip(s)..."
Now, he did another thing today too. I had mentioned that my belt was on it's last loop - the tightest it can get. Because it was a text I didn't want to type it all out that it was the last notch as you tighten it. So, David, knowing I have lost 7 pounds and very good with my diet and exercise asks if it's a good or a bad thing.... like why would my pants be getting tighter, belts getting too small, if I'm losing weight???? That didn't make sense.
Then I had had a stupid conversation with Sean (a semi-friend) ast night. He called me to ask about stuff here at work and then he goes into talking trash about Obama because of the tax payment issues with his nominees. Sean says "You have 2 choices, Obama is a moron or Obama is a moron." I told him that none of the nominees have been found guilty of tax evasion and they are all paying their taxes and he goes on and on and I said - "OK, I've got to go, bye" and hung up on him. OK, so that happened and it irritated me to no end and I texted David about it. Well, earlier that evening (and all day actually) I couldn't stop eating. I was just hungry all day. So I had some organic pizza for dinner then I ate a bunch of flan and then I ate a bunch of cookies from Trader Joes. It was after all that that the call from Sean ticked me off. But stuff like Sean ticking me off doesn't cause me to go on a binge. If people ticking me off caused me to binge I'd be 300 pounds by now. I have never binged because someone ticks me off. I binge because I binge....I'm too low on calories for too many days, or it's PMS, but not because I'm ticked. Well, David asks "Did you eat after Sean's call?" - and I'm thinking - you just really don't "know" me do you? Being friends for 10 years and dating for over a year and a half and he doesn't get me....
At least that's what I'm feeling today...