Tuesday, February 10, 2009
so i had an intense workout this morning, and i'm about to start getting ready for work, but i wanted to get a blog up real quick...
the gym is where i can be myself... where i define myself. where i build and sculpt myself. where i CHANGE myself. where i feel comfortable. confident. strong. sexy. like i can do anything i put my mind to. when i was taking a sip of water in between sets i looked at myself in the mirror and i thought.. this is the only public place i go without makeup. and i love it. i feel so liberated. i wake up in the morning and i go. as i am. me. wendi. i challenge myself as i lift weights... sometimes i can't complete the last 2 reps on my last set. my arms just won't let me push. they're done. i've failed. and it's no secret. it's out in the open for everyone to see, and it's OKAY. i kick my own ass on the arc trainer. i'm dripping in sweat. my hair's disgusting. if i notice i'm slowing down, i make myself speed it up. it's me pushing myself to the limit every time i'm there. it's hard. it's exciting. and it gives me so much satisfaction when i walk out the doors of the gym and the cold air hits me, i take a deep breath in, exhale, and i walk to my car and i know i just did all that for me. i'm doin me, and it's SUCH a good feeling.