Surreal and Real at the same time.

Hi Spark friends!

Happy March! Woo Hoo spring is just around the corner It can't be to soon for me. Well, I am sooooo excited to report that as of my weigh in yesterday I am now 47 pounds lighter then the day I started here on spark people. I lost a pound this week. I am now at 149. I have not seen the 140's in more years then I can remember. It is so surreal to me. On one hand I am so very excited and proud of myself for my commitment to a healthier lifestyle and on the other my mind is still playing catch up with my body. It is a funny thing because I used to think wow if I could only lose this weight. In thinking that I never imagined the adjustment my head would need to go through. By this I mean I still behave as if I am still at my heaviest weight. I forget I am smaller now and can do more things and wear smaller clothes. I am so used to not having the energy, not being able to do something, and wearing an extra large in tops and size 16 in pants that it is surreal to me when I see that I am different now. Don't get me wrong it is an AWESOME feeling making this progress. I think I was so used to being over weight for so long that I am having a hard time really believing I have come this far. After many years of falling off my programs and never following through with doing this, it is still hard to believe I have really made these positive changes for myself. I went to buy a new pair of jeans this past weekend because my last purchase was getting to loose on me. I was so happy when I not only fit into a size 10 but I also can get into an 8. Wow! The 8's were a little tight still but I got in them! I have been stepping up my exercise this month to hopefully reach my goal this month. If I don't do it until next month that will be okay to. I just want to continue getting healthier. I want to share this experience with my spark friends because I want you to know that as surreal as it seems to me right now, it is real. I did this and I am healthier for it and I feel so much better then when I began this journey. I want this for all of you too. We are all on this journey together and I want all of us to succeed and be healthier together. We may all stumble during this process but it is so important that we not get discouraged and give up. We need to pick ourselves up and get right back on track. Reach out to your spark friends because we are all here for one another. I reached out when I was struggling and you all helped me get right back on track and work through my issues. We all need to remember to reach out when we need help. There is no shame here and no one judges. Don't think you need to be perfect because none of us are perfect. We are all just people working to become healthier and feel better about ourselves. The support and encouragement is here for all of us so please use it! We are all worth this commitment to ourselves. We all deserve to be the best we can be. I am feeling a million times better then the day I started this journey. Many spark friends have preceded me in this chapter of the journey here. Other spark friends are still working their program to get to their next goal. Wherever any of us are in this journey please keep moving forward towards your goal with me as I work towards mine. Together we can all do this. I wish you all continued success. "Nothing tastes as good as thin feels"