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Wednesday, March 04, 2009

Hi Spark friends!

Happy March! Woo Hoo spring is just around the corner emoticon It can't be to soon for me. Well, I am sooooo excited to report that as of my weigh in yesterday I am now 47 pounds lighter then the day I started here on spark people. I lost a pound this week. I am now at 149. I have not seen the 140's in more years then I can remember. emoticon It is so surreal to me. On one hand I am so very excited and proud of myself for my commitment to a healthier lifestyle and on the other my mind is still playing catch up with my body. It is a funny thing because I used to think wow if I could only lose this weight. In thinking that I never imagined the adjustment my head would need to go through. By this I mean I still behave as if I am still at my heaviest weight. I forget I am smaller now and can do more things and wear smaller clothes. I am so used to not having the energy, not being able to do something, and wearing an extra large in tops and size 16 in pants that it is surreal to me when I see that I am different now. Don't get me wrong it is an AWESOME feeling making this progress. I think I was so used to being over weight for so long that I am having a hard time really believing I have come this far. After many years of falling off my programs and never following through with doing this, it is still hard to believe I have really made these positive changes for myself. I went to buy a new pair of jeans this past weekend because my last purchase was getting to loose on me. I was so happy when I not only fit into a size 10 but I also can get into an 8. Wow! The 8's were a little tight still but I got in them! I have been stepping up my exercise this month to hopefully reach my goal this month. If I don't do it until next month that will be okay to. I just want to continue getting healthier. I want to share this experience with my spark friends because I want you to know that as surreal as it seems to me right now, it is real. I did this and I am healthier for it and I feel so much better then when I began this journey. I want this for all of you too. We are all on this journey together and I want all of us to succeed and be healthier together. We may all stumble during this process but it is so important that we not get discouraged and give up. We need to pick ourselves up and get right back on track. Reach out to your spark friends because we are all here for one another. I reached out when I was struggling and you all helped me get right back on track and work through my issues. We all need to remember to reach out when we need help. There is no shame here and no one judges. Don't think you need to be perfect because none of us are perfect. We are all just people working to become healthier and feel better about ourselves. The support and encouragement is here for all of us so please use it! We are all worth this commitment to ourselves. We all deserve to be the best we can be. I am feeling a million times better then the day I started this journey. Many spark friends have preceded me in this chapter of the journey here. Other spark friends are still working their program to get to their next goal. Wherever any of us are in this journey please keep moving forward towards your goal with me as I work towards mine. Together we can all do this. I wish you all continued success. "Nothing tastes as good as thin feels"

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    I'm catching up on needed inspiration by reading your blog... SIZE 8, GIRL!!!!!!! YOU ROCK!!!!

    I will get my exercise in today come hell or high water! (or rather, come 4 hours in the car and a BBQ at the Foxopolis's)
    4312 days ago
  • MRSAKINS2005
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  • HOCKEY47
    Congratulations!!!!! emoticon
    4333 days ago
    Hey girl,

    Don't think I've forgotten about you. Always seem to have a lot on my plate. Thanks for the luck....I hope it gets me going again. Hurrah for you....less than 150!!! Happy St. Pats to you!

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    WOW! You are doing so fantastic! Next thing you will have the "I lost 50 lb" profile picture from the success gallery! And what great success you are creating for yourself. You are already reaping some of the benefits and they will only grow with time as you maintain your loss. Hang in there and keep being an inspiration to all of us! Your friend, Kathleen
    4343 days ago
    Congratulations on the fantastic job! I'm so proud of you. Your mind will catch up to your body in no time.

    For me it's the other way around. I'm not sure my mind ever grasped the concept that I was overweight for the first time in my life. The biggest struggle I had with that was how different the rest of the world treats over weight people. It' s horrible compared to how they treat thin people.

    I hope you'll post some before & after pics when you reach your goal.

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    4343 days ago
    Congratulations, I love hearing these stories, its always encouraging to others and makes me believe I can do it. emoticon
    4343 days ago
  • H-2-OH
    4343 days ago
    Isn't it amazing what your mind can do? Getting to feel like you are healthier is a great thing. I am still working towards my goal, very slowly at that, but I am moving towards healthier eating every day. I am very happy that you are so very close to your goal, keep up the good work.

    You are right, NOTHING tastes as good as thin feels.

    4343 days ago
  • CHERIE55
    I weigh exactly the same as you do and I really understand the surreal feelings too. My mind doesn't yet understand that I have reached the under 150 pound zone. When I start to write that I am 149 pounds, my mind stalls and I almost write 180 or 178 or 167. 9 pounds from goal is an awesome place to be and I am there with you! Hugs my friend,

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    4343 days ago
    Fantastic! Great Job! emoticon
    4343 days ago
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    Awesome! Thanks for sharing!
    4343 days ago
  • DAGDA68
    That rocks thanks for sharing emoticon
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    Comment edited on: 3/5/2009 9:09:45 AM
  • LISA1316
    emoticon I wanna scream I'm so happy for you...I'm doin a hula dance right now... emoticon I'm so proud and just want you to know that you continue to be my biggest inspiration I totally look up to you. I can't wait till I reach my goals this year...it will be done! emoticon emoticon Your amazing...keep rockin my friend!

    4343 days ago
    So happy you shared your success with us, great feeling. Sparks is great! Skeeter emoticon
    4343 days ago
    Thanks for sharing. You are an inspiration!
    4343 days ago
    Donna, thanks for sharing your thoughts, feelings, and experiences with us here ...but most of all... emoticon emoticon emoticon on losing all that weight!! You described that baffling "surreal and real" feeling perfectly, too. We'll all be following you, 'cause we want some of that! :) - Sara emoticon
    4343 days ago
  • MYTURN11
    I like your spark page with the I'm Done With...so much that I printed it out.

    I loved your blog - great job. Congratulations on your success. You are a great inspiration to me and have done so well on your journey and I applaud you for taking the time to help us to feel positive and stay focused.

    Thank you.

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    Comment edited on: 3/5/2009 7:11:49 AM
    emoticon emoticon emoticon What an accomplishment! You have so much to be proud of. I understand the body - mind conflict, but they will match up pretty soon. Thanks for sharing your success!
    4343 days ago
    emoticon You are such an inspiration and I always love reading your blogs. I think you have made such fantastic progress and have so much to be proud of my friend. Thanks for sharing your success!!
    Your SP friend,
    Pam A
    4343 days ago
    What an inspiration - it does seem at times that our mind still thinks things that used to be but are not any more. Congrats on your achievements and keep up the good work!
    4343 days ago
    Keep up the good work. Hopefully your mind will catch up with your body soon. After losing 220 plus lbs myself, I am still trying to play catch up.

    Keep it going. you are doing awesome.

    4343 days ago
    Thanks for such a wonderful motivational blog. Congrats on your awesome progress!
    4343 days ago
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    emoticon to you Spark Friend. You are an inspirations to many. May you have a fabulous future.
    4343 days ago
    woohoo for the 140s! that is an awesome milestone, isn't it?
    i experienced this "catching up with my body" too. i still feel a size or two "fatter" than i actually am, and i'm always amazed that i don't tire as easily as i used to.
    you will be at your goal soon! emoticon
    4343 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4228914
    Donna, the resounding theme of your blog today that I come away with is that you're feeling good again.

    Congratulations! It is great that you can stand up and say that you're feeling good or encourage others to ask for help. It is why I love this community of people because we are in this together.

    Keep on Sparking Donna!


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    Comment edited on: 3/5/2009 3:29:46 AM
  • CUDDY521
    Thank you so much for sharing your story with us,
    you have inspired me so much my friend!!
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    4343 days ago
    You are so positive! I love reading your blogs. They are so inspiring! I am so happy for you with your awesome progress. Keep going and keep blogging. It inspires me and I am sure a whole lot of other people too!
    4343 days ago
  • DEBANNE1124
    And it's only going to get better.
    4343 days ago
    emoticon that is fantastic Donna! You are such an inspiration to us. I am so happy for you.

    4343 days ago
  • CLEWIS0607
    Way to go!! How amazing it must feel to know that all your hard work has paid off. Isn't it crazy how much of a mental transformation needs to happen as well? We think it is all about fat but really it has so much to do with internal things. I just wish you continued success and happiness. Thank you for sharing your victory, I can't wait to be where you are:)
    4343 days ago
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