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Been a While....

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

So it's been a while since I have been on spark people. I am now at the heaviest weight I have ever been in my life at 220 pounds with a BMI of 37. I am still trying to figure out why I don't want to do the work to lose the weight. I have so many reasons to lose weight biological social and emotional and I am aware of how to lose weight. I just don't seems to be able to want to do it. I once heard that the definition of insanity is is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result. I have tried to mix it up and tried to think positively about my goals and my options. But I think it come down to not trusting my self. I don't keep promises to me, I lie to me, I cheat me. I say I'm going to work out today and I don't, I say I'm going to eat healthier and I don't. I know all the tricks I know all the types of exercise I know what I like and what I don't like. I am back on here because I know there is some part of me minuscule as it may be that does want to be successful for no other reason than to be admired by others both physically and for the ability to succeed at something that so many fail at. This may seem petty but I am searching for any type of motivation. Feed back is definitely welcome. Where do I go from here?
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  • 40_4ME4FAMILY
    It isn't easy to change. There is comfort even in the things that make us uncomfortable. Make small goals, don't overwhelm yourself with big stuff you know you won't/can't acheive or won't stick to. Make a goal to drink 2 glasses of water daily. Do that until it's easy and part of your routine, then make it 3. Decide to walk 1/2 mile 3 days a week. It doesn't matter what it is. Decide on some small, healthy goals and do them. They may seem silly or small, but they are not. Those things can be a building block to a whole new you. Best of luck. Feel free to chat if you need support!
    4201 days ago
  • JACINDA222
    Yes, welcome back and good job on taking the first step toward making the changes that you have to make to not only lose weight--but also keep it off (since it's pointless to lose weight if you're just going to gain it back.) You have to start with WANTING to change!

    My suggestion would be to begin by focusing on the things that you know you CAN and WILL do--no matter how insignificant those things may seem. (For example, something like drinking eight glasses of water a day or keeping track of what you eat even if you don't put any limits on it.) The more you can prove to yourself that you are able to accomplish things, the easier it will be to become able to accomplish bigger things!

    The same goes in reverse too--the more that you try to do something and fail, the harder it is to have the "I can do it!" mindset that makes it possible to overcome the barriers to change.

    I know exactly what you mean when you say that you can't trust yourself. That is a completely NORMAL response to lapses and setbacks. I hate to sound all preachy, but it will seriously help you if you try not to dwell on those times when you let yourself down. Try instead to focus on times when you did accomplish something that you set out to do. Because I'm sure that there have been those times!

    Good luck! My thoughts are with you!
    4204 days ago
  • REDNECKFEMINIST
    Welcome Back and Happy St. Patrick's Day!
    4205 days ago
  • NIGELNIA
    Hey Phenomenal Lady,

    Silver welcome back and you have been missed. Come on home stop by social workers unite. I know you can do this and although some can every one can't conquer this battle alone. This is a step back in the right direction and when you feel like going the other way remember there are people here that have your back. ALthough the finale is yours and yours alone there will many people who would have helped you along the way. So welcome back and lets get fired up. I have a fired up train and there's room for you all aboard.

    Love Audrey emoticon
    4205 days ago
  • NSPIREDSOUL
    I just want to say that I admire your courage for coming on here saying all of that. That's the first step to the new you. The people on this site are very encouraging and I really encourage you to take advantage of it. By that I mean, if you are having a bad day, come here and let us know about it. We will help you deal with it. If you are having an awesome day, come here and we will jump for joy with you. We are all in this together and we all need encouragement.

    I know I will be here if you need me. Just drop me a line! emoticon
    4205 days ago
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