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Miami bound?!

Monday, March 23, 2009

I was invited on a trip to Miami! The room is paid for but I'll have to have spending money (lots probably, that place is expensive!). It's an girls weekend! I would normally have never even considered going but now that my life is a bit different, I think it will be fun! I haven't been on a girls vacation since I was 21 years old...that's almost 8 years ago! I won't know how to act!!

BUT...my fears and self esteem issues are already starting to bubble up. All the girls are wealthy, gorgeous, tall, thin, college grads, etc. My mind is already knocking me down with the "I'm not good enoughs"

Why do I do that to myself?! It's so unhealthy! I have a lot to be proud of! I've accomplished a lot in my lifetime and I've done it on my own - no help from mommy and daddy - no help from a guy! My career is prospering because I'm a dedicated, intelligent, go-getter and it is recognized my my peers - no college needed!!

Somehow I have to find a way to keep telling myself all of those things next weekend. I want to go! I want to have fun. I want to meet new people. I want to get dressed up and go out dancing! I can't let my fears stop me!!

So...until then, I'm eating right, hitting the gym and talking positively to myself! I will have fun. I will not care that I'm not a size 2. I am proud of me!
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  • KIPPER_KID
    Go for it and ENJOY!

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    4165 days ago
  • BIOFOOL
    Just go and have a wonderful time. Don't beat yourself up. You deserve everything you get. I live in Miami so let me welcome you here now! LOL. Take care.
    4165 days ago
  • MSRUBY66
    Good for you! Have a wonderful time...ALLOW yourself to have a wonderful time, then come back and tell me all about it, I have not had a girls get away in many years!!!
    4201 days ago
  • WANDASEW
    Amber, you will have so much fun. Just throw caution to the wind and let it all go. You are beautiful and strong...have fun and dont care what anyone else thinks. Live in the moment for no one else , but yourself, you deserve that! Have fun...I wanna go, LOL!

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    4202 days ago
  • *FITBUNNY*
    Good For You! I think it's great that you are keeping your head up. You should go and have fun and not care. It seems like we have similar thoughts about "not being good enough." I never went to college either, but am pretty successful at what I do. I always feel a little inferior when I'm in a group of college grads...stupid, I know. We are just as smart, cute, etc. as the others, we just have to recognize it in ourselves. (I'm giving myself a little pep-talk here!)

    Have a great time on your trip!
    Miranda
    4202 days ago
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