It would be nice to be a size 5 again!!
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
yesss my fiancee told me that last night. he doesn't think that i am fat, but its kinda crazy because he told me to lose some weight. it hurts a ton for him to tell me that but he right. i do not wanna be this size i went from a size 5/6 to an 11/13 in less than 2 years. it's kinda hard growing up in america because i spent my adolescent years in japan. here in the u.s. i drive from place to place and sit at home eating sleeping eating. in japan i pretty much walked everywhere and where i lived there wasnt a load of fast food places. maybe also the fact that my parents were health freaks did it. my parents woke me up at 5 every morning, including school days and made me go to the gym with the for an hour and a half. and every night for an hour and a half before the gym closed i had to run, lift weights, and walk home. my parents were the main reason i was in shape and its crazy because here i go to fast food and go to buffets at least twice a week with my fiancee. my fiancee is really thin and eats ten times more than i do, but he is trying to bulk up. i wish sometimes we can switch metabolisms. being this fat just makes me wanna cry because i am not used to seeing fatness everyday.