Sometimes you have no control
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Ok, so I was all set last night to have my quiet night with an appletini. No exercise, no stress. So I grabbed my girls to run some errands when I got out of work and we went shopping. I do not shop, I am a buyer. One of those people that will not frequent a store, but when I go, I buy. Dana has been whining about needing new undies and socks. God forbid he walks in a store... But still I decide that while we are out buying a gift for my nephew's girlfriend I would buy a few things for Dana. Then I went to the video store and bought a copy of the bucket list. A movie that my husband has been wanting to see for a long time. Finally, I go to CVS and spend 25 minutes in line getting meds for my mother in law and making sure that she got the best price for the plan she was on. They were going to charge her 20 dollars too much and I really try to help them with these things.
So on my way home, I stop at their house to drop off the meds. No one is there. Clothes on the line. Really strange for them. So I am on my way to the car when my youngest tells me that Dad is on the phone and it is important... Ugg, will my night that i planned to be romantic be squashed.... yes.
My MIL was rushed to the hospital and he was at wits end. He was freaking that my oldest had not told me that he had called. And he was tweaking. I get home and he is so upset. I run in the house and get changed for the hospital and I drive him. Listening to him rant about my oldest daughters problems with following through. Bla bla bla. He was transferring all his anger about the situation on her. Yes she can be flighty, but she did not deserve hissy he was throwing. So we got to the hospital at 6:30. Seven and a half hours later they admitted her to a room and we found that she did not have a bowel abstruction, but a flare up of colitis. OMG. It was so sad. I was sitting with my FIL and my mother in law suffers from alzheimers. He was telling me how he asked Helen if he wanted him to set the car up so that they could die of fumes together. She said she did not think so. He was crying telling me how he hates to see her deteriorate daily and how he does not want to live with out her. OMG. I was crying thinking how could I live watching my husband live that way. I told him that we will get him help and that he could not do that. IT would devastate my daughters, his son, and me. OMG. And my mother in law laid in bed asking us for hours where we were and when we were going home. So sad...
Needless to say, I did not get my appletini. I did not get dinner. I was way below my nutritional and caloric intake goals for the day. Only 766 calories for the day. :(
Today I am going to go with Dana and help haul wood. I think the fresh air will really help me and that an upper body workout would be great for me today. I am going to breathe the fresh air and Thank God for my health and my families help. And I will pray that Dana's family has the strength to pull together to help in the upcoming year with Helen. Things are so bad.
I know that the fresh air will help me. So I think I am going to go off line and get outside asap.
Here is to a better today than yesterday. And a goal of eating more.