Hi spark friends

I am very happy to report my ticker has finally moved again. YEA! My weigh in today showed a 2 pound loss this week. I just came back from the gym. I had a great workout. I was there on the elliptical and all of a sudden my ipod went off. If your anything like me you know it is really hard to get through a workout without music. It motivates me to keep going when I am exercising. I had just been all motivated with songs like you get what you give by The New Radicals, Love in this club by Usher, Glamorous by Fergie, Start me up by The Rolling Stones, A little Staying Alive by The Bee Gees, and even some Clint Black and Reba McIntyre. I have a huge range of music on my ipod. So there I am exercising and listening to music and then NOTHING! I was only 20 minutes into my 40 minute workout. What was I going to do! Okay my battery had died because I failed to check it before I left for the gym, but now it was going to cost me my workout. I mean I can't possibly do this without my music. So, I thought! Well, I started thinking. Really? I am actually thinking of giving up on my workout because of music? I began looking around at the other people on machines all around me. Yes, most of them did have ipods on, but not all. So I thought maybe I am using this as an excuse not to finish my workout. I have been the queen of excuses for years in the department of exercise and eating right. I don't know if I ever shared with you that my hubby is a big gym rat. He is in to the weight lifting and goes a minimum of 5 times a week. You'd think that would have shamed me into going to the gym and taking better care of myself. But, I did not have the will, desire or determination to do it. I would have my nearly 200 pounds laying on the couch and ask him to hand me the chips on his way out the door. There I was the queen of excuses! I have Fibromyalgia and that was my excuse, I have back problems and had previous surgery, that was a favorite excuse. I had sleep apnea, oh not enough sleep, can't exercise. I am on medications and they make me feel sick, so can't exercise. I was an emotional eater, great excuse. Upset me, make me sad, happy, hurt, overwhelmed, stressed, I'd eat. You name it, I used it as an excuse not to eat healthy or exercise. I simply did not have the will to change things in my life. Clear and simple. So I laid there with my blinders on, in denial, thinking I covered with all my excuses so I am just going to enjoy these chips. Well, guess who I was fooling? Only myself!
So as I was on that elliptical today with no music, I thought back to all those times I had made excuses. I then said to myself, NO I am not giving up my workout because my ipod went out. That is an EXCUSE! So I stayed on and got my full workout done with NO music. It really made me think as I was driving home that if there is a will to do something there is ALWAYS a way to get it done. All the old excuses I used to make were just that, excuses! I was looking for a reason NOT to do what I know I needed to do. To do what it actually takes to accomplish my goals of being a healthier person who feels good about themselves. I simply was not ready to do anything about my weight or to change my high fat diet and become healthy. I was settling for being an unhealthy, overweight person. After all, I had reasons right? No what I had was called excuses !
Well just for the record, since I have got on board with healthier eating and exercising, I feel better, my fibromyalgia isn't as painful. I still have bad days but not near as many as I used to. I take 80 percent less medications then before I started doing something about my weight. My sleep apnea is GONE! My back feels better. My emotional eating is not an issue anymore. I still have challenges with my health but I have learned that I really helped my body overall. I have taken the initiative to make changes in my life that benefit my health.
So was I going to go back to the excuse making because I had no music? Absolutely NOT! That confirmed for me that where there is truly a WILL to do something, there IS a WAY to get it done! We just have to want it enough.
I wanted to share this with my spark friends because I know how easy it can be to make the excuses and give up and give in. I have been there! But once we set our minds to do something, we CAN do it! So please if you have a hurdle or are struggling with something, or feel weak, DON"T give in to that. Just push forward and get what it is you really want. Accomplish your goals. You CAN do it! Having this site makes it SO much easier. We have a huge community of other people working to do the same things for themselves that are willing to share with us, willing to reach out to others, willing to cheer us on, willing to support each other, willing to be a friend when you need one. We are not alone in this journey. So lets ramp up that Will to get this done for ourselves and make it happen!
I wish you all a GREAT week!