Drop the Load...adios to emotional suppression
Sunday, April 26, 2009
I went to visit a really good friend this weekend. She told me I have inspired her to do something different. I did not inspire her with some massive weight loss. So surprising to me was that she told a story from our past. She said she vividly remembered a time that I visited her when I was under a lot of stress and was venting to her. She remembered that when I had finished telling her my story, I sat down next to a box of crackers and started eating. She said she remembered thinking "so this is what they mean when they say emotional eating."
Yeah...it's true. It exists. When I wrote the opener to my sparkpage I noticed that I really felt like I had put it on the line, that I had gotten to the bottom of it...my desire to be liked and to please and to be perfect was crushing spirit. I have been practicing, almost without full awareness, the art of presenting myself honestly to the world, and this is what my friend noticed. Yes, I've been doing the South Beach thing...loosely, but more than that I have been confronting my oldest beliefs about myself. And low and behold...it shows. My friend said 'You have totally changed how you eat..more than what, it is how." She had to explain to me what she saw.
I am so blown away by this! Is it really possible, that by entertaining and then acting upon this notion of really being on my own side, of living my life the way I want and expressing myself honestly, that I might be able to drop the load (literally and figuratively)? Why yes!
It gives me such hope after a very long battle with weight. I want to sing it from the rooftops!