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Reality Check

Wednesday, May 06, 2009

This past weekend my husband and I went to Vegas to bowl in a tournament with our league. Of course all of our friends were taking pictures. I know that I have gained a lot of weight the past year but I dont think I ever admitted how bad it was until the other night. The reality of my size and what I really look like now was right there in all the pictures my friends had taken. I am now the fat friend of our group. I have to face the fact that I am huge and I have a good 75 pounds to lose. I have been having a problem exercising because of a problem with my sciatica which has been causing some really bad pain which is worse when I walk. Ive been having to sleep flat on my back the past 5 weeks. To make matters worse I was just diagnosed with a thyroid problem and now have to take a synthetic thyroid replacement. Hopefully that will help with how tired I am all the time. If I could just have some energy and not feel so exhausted and hopeless maybe I will be able to stick to an exercise plan. I guess I just need to find a way to accept that this is where I am and find a way to move forward. My self esteem is so low right now and beating myself up the way I have the past couple of days is only making matters worse. I need to find a way to be more positive and to give myself some hope. I need to find a way to love myself again.
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  • PEPPERZ5665
    There are ways to exercise without walking...As far as energy goes, I have more energy than I know what to do with doin Atkins...Great site to be on for support...The tools here are wonderful...Only been on a few days myself, (was using Atkins site), and this is the place for me...

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    3787 days ago
    I feel like I could have written this blog myself. I also have sciatica that likes to crop up and cause problems during exercise. As you already know I also take the thyroid replacement medication. The hopelessness will get better as our meds become more effective. Every step towards our goals is a step closer to feeling more positive so we just need to keep on trying. There is always an alternative and solution if we allow ourselves to search for one. Don't give up! emoticon
    3977 days ago
    You can do this. I agree with baby steps. It is amazing how seeing a picture will do it. That is what started me going.

    good luck

    4319 days ago
    emoticon to the Mastering Metabolism team!

    You have already taken that first step towards a new, happy, healthier you in making that commitment to yourself.

    Believe that you can do this, however long it may take. Just take baby steps and ease yourself into it. You CAN do this!

    4319 days ago
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