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Stop looking at your feet!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

I tried to go to the gym in my apartment today, but for some reason my electronic key wouldn't unlock the door. So, I decided to go for a walk. I knew it would hurt and I haven't done it for years because of that reason, but I'm going to have my surgery in less than a week and I will not be able to walk for a long time.

Okay, so I'm walking and I have this "AHA" moment. I'm staring at my feet - the whole time. I'm walking and constantly staring at my feet. I'm concentrating on how well I'm walking, how hard I'm pushing, and looking out for anything that might make me fall. I tell myself to just look up and low and behold it's a beautiful day! The sun is shining, it's a perfectly blue sky, the waves are crashing on the sand and there is a spectacular view of the Boston skyline. THIS IS MY PROBLEM WITH LIFE!!! emoticon

I'm always so obsessed with how I'm doing and preventing something bad from happening that I NEVER just enjoy what I'm doing, the actual life I am living. It was so nice to look around and see such a wonderful world, god what have I been missing?!? So what if I trip on something, or I don't push myself every moment of my journey - I can absorb the experience and enjoy it. If I fall, I fall, but it's not worth spending every waking moment trying to avoid potential problems and never really experiencing my life. Besides, problems seem to happen even when I am doing everything I can to avoid them.

I just thought I would share. I don't know if anyone can relate with this... it just seemed so simple, yet so profound.

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  • MAMASUE12244
    I am just now getting to read your blog of this date. Joined Sparks in July so am having a lot to read ...will never read them all.
    But this blog was an eye opener for me. As I read, I realized I know every hole , every small chunk of black top that is out of the road, and every mark for the water meters. But I couldn't tell you what the houses look like or the cars or even the people on my street. That is sad..
    So today when I walk, I will hold up my head and like you...if I trip...so be it. Thanks for the insight..
    And the others were right about going to school before you are well. College, especially medical school, is sooo stressful. Make sure you are physcially fit to be mentally fit. You are young...there is still a lot of time to do your dream. Stay focused on it... emoticon
    4173 days ago
  • DERVISHJ
    Good luck with your surgery!
    Thanks for posting this. Here's to enjoying life!
    4266 days ago
  • SANDGEE62
    I love when you have an AHA moment.
    When I got to the one you just discovered it got me off my own back, so to speak, and I really began enjoying life.

    Good luck and heal well.
    4266 days ago
  • JESSIEW84
    Don't you love those eye opening moments?! I'm so happy you were able to enjoy the rest of your walk. Good luck with your surgery.
    4266 days ago
  • ONEREALLYBIGDOG
    Kerry,
    they say it just takes LITTLE STEPS
    W2G
    4266 days ago
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