Stop looking at your feet!
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
I tried to go to the gym in my apartment today, but for some reason my electronic key wouldn't unlock the door. So, I decided to go for a walk. I knew it would hurt and I haven't done it for years because of that reason, but I'm going to have my surgery in less than a week and I will not be able to walk for a long time.
Okay, so I'm walking and I have this "AHA" moment. I'm staring at my feet - the whole time. I'm walking and constantly staring at my feet. I'm concentrating on how well I'm walking, how hard I'm pushing, and looking out for anything that might make me fall. I tell myself to just look up and low and behold it's a beautiful day! The sun is shining, it's a perfectly blue sky, the waves are crashing on the sand and there is a spectacular view of the Boston skyline. THIS IS MY PROBLEM WITH LIFE!!!
I'm always so obsessed with how I'm doing and preventing something bad from happening that I NEVER just enjoy what I'm doing, the actual life I am living. It was so nice to look around and see such a wonderful world, god what have I been missing?!? So what if I trip on something, or I don't push myself every moment of my journey - I can absorb the experience and enjoy it. If I fall, I fall, but it's not worth spending every waking moment trying to avoid potential problems and never really experiencing my life. Besides, problems seem to happen even when I am doing everything I can to avoid them.
I just thought I would share. I don't know if anyone can relate with this... it just seemed so simple, yet so profound.