Setting my self up
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Have I been setting myself up to fail? The answer to that I believe in my heart is "Yes". Why? That question I don't know the answer to. Maybe because I have failed in the past. Maybe because I believe that I can't do it. Maybe because I believe that I am too busy to succeed. Maybe beacuse I belive myself not worthy to succeed. But whatever the reason, I have been setting myself up to fail. So now what? I have idenitfied it, but what do I do about it?
I need to make changes. I need to make changes in my enviornment and in my thought processes. Knowing that I have been failing is not enough. I have to know why and change it. Not long ago I realized that I have been binging and have a complusive eating issue. Ok so now I know. I worked to do something about it but when I failed I quit. I have to change that thought and know that even when I fail, it's only one day or one hour and I have to get myself believing that I can do it.
I have such wonderful support from my husband and my family and my friends and the people I have met here at sparkpeople. All those people think I can do it. Now it's time for me to believe it. I bought myself a dry erase board and on it I am going to keep track of my daily goals. Not just for a day or for a week, and not just while I am doing good. But for a really long time. Until I don't need it any more and I don't know how long that will take, but I am going to use it. I need to know that I can do this and I am worth whatever time and effort it takes. And I know I will be better for it.
I have to set myself up to succeed. I have to set myself up to win. I know I can do it.
Here's to change. Change for the better. Baby steps to make it and staying where I am once I get there. It's time and I am so worth it!