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Ramblings of a humbled fat woman on the island of misfit toys

Saturday, May 23, 2009

It's hard to even know where to begin. This last week has been the longest year of my life. It really does feel like the week that just won't end.


This weekend the plan is to rest well, eat well, exercise, go do my hospital visits, get some chores done. Just regroup. I can't help but wonder.....will I ever not feel like I belong on the island for misfit toys? I feel broken. I hope that as I continue to follow this journey that my purpose will reveal itself.

peace, love, and battling loss...
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  • DOLLIE6
    Belinda, I am sending you much love. Keep on loving yourself and get healthy you are needed very much. I will keep you in my prayers.
    4286 days ago
  • SHIRLEYDILLARD
    Wow - what a week. Hope you have a chance to really mend this weekend. Praying for you.
    4298 days ago
  • PAIGE367
    My god, what a week you've had. Of course you felt like burrrowing into the covers! But I'm not surprised that you didn't, you are one of the strongest people I know and I'm very proud of you for continuing with exercise and nutrition. You are very special Belinda and it is obvious that we on SP are not the only ones who think so. I am so very sorry for all that has happened this week. I will keep you and your loved ones in my prayers. I hope life lightens up for you soon.
    4298 days ago
  • HONEYBEAR1461
    Your comment of.....I can't help but wonder.....will I ever not feel like I belong on the island for misfit toys? I feel broken. I hope that as I continue to follow this journey that my purpose will reveal itself....really hits a chord with me too.

    I think that as big people we end up allowing others to make us feel as though we are less than human, yet for the most part I think that many of us larger people are really caring, loving, loyal people. Only a few weeks ago I was feeling totally broken by something that had happened in my family and I had been left out of the loop, it left me wondering what my purpose was in life if it wasn't to help others and be there for family and friends.

    I know that it is often hard but we need to know that we are not misfit toys we are genuine, loving, caring, helping people and now others just need to look past our exterior and see the beauty we have within.

    Take care and take some time for yourself after this horrid week you have had. I will pray for your friend and also the tiny baby.

    Jennylee
    4298 days ago
  • ANNBELL08
    Belinda you must be such a good friend to have so many good and strong people care about you enough to have you in there lives when they are going through really horrible times because that is when you need your best friends with you. Maybe the universe is sending you a message that you are loved and needed and that is the best reason to keep doing what you are doing to improve your health and live a better life. I am so impressed that you were still able to keep up your routine even though you were having a very long week. I am sorry you have lost your friend and I hope the little one is better soon. emoticon emoticon
    4299 days ago
  • .DUSTY.
    It's hard to know what to say after such a week as you've had! So sad! I know that you'll make it through. Please take care of yourself!
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    4299 days ago
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