When life hands you a lemon...
Thursday, May 28, 2009
...eat it and make a sour face! At least that's the way I feel right now. Yes, I know you can find the positive and make that lemon into lemonade, but I just need a few minutes to sulk.
Life has truly been a roller coaster over the last two months. I've hardly had time to get past one issue when another one appears. Mom dead...check. Granddaughter arrives...check. Daughter recovered...check. Son happy...check Finances beginning to stabilize...check. Life seems pretty good, so what's the catch, right?
Well, there is a catch...there always is, because that's what life does. Things are still crappy at work. I'm preparing to leave one job and move on to another, but there are issues that will keep me tied to the old job for who knows how long and will definitely impact my life negatively for an indefinite period. I hate that, but can't change it. I just have to go with the flow. All of that going on while anticipating a new job and all the accompanying unknowns. Up and down, round and round, I'm ready to get off this ride for a while! LOL
To complicate matters further, my husband was home sick today and got a call from work that he is being laid off. Lovely. We didn't see that coming. Panic tried to set in, but I managed to avoid it for the time being. Like so many other families who have been similarly affected in this economy, I wonder how we will get past this next hurdle? Where will he ever find another job? Will I be able to cover our bills on just my salary? My head is spinning. You know what...I'm not going to worry about it. It won't help and isn't constructive. I'm going to focus on what I can do and try to put the other concerns out of my mind for now! Wow, what a change! The good Lord must be taking charge, just like I knew He would.
So many questions right now, and no answers. The only thing I do know is that life will continue to be unpredictable. I've never had an easy life, so I'm certainly used to working through adversity. I don't know what tomorrow will bring, or next week, or next month. But I know I'm not giving up...on myself, on my husband, or this crazy world. I'm going to fight back with everything in me to get back to goal weight, to eat properly and exercise a little every day. I'm not going to let life get the best of me. Oh, I know I'll be a little bruised and worn when I get to the other side of this mess, but I'll come out a winner in the long run.
Jab! Poke! Punch! Kick! There...take that life. I'm not going to let you win this one!