Hi Spark Friends,
I wanted to share some of my most recent discoveries in my lifestyle change process. I feel like this process is so much more then just the weight loss. It has really made me discover who I am. I never took the time to learn as much about me as I would take to learn about a friend or even a co worker. For the first time I am learning about who I am.
First of all before I get in to that I want to share with you that I weighed in today and am down 2 pounds this week.
I could not believe my eyes!! I have been at a complete stand still for weeks! I was sure it would be a no loss again this week and I was PLEASANTLY surprised!! That is huge for me because it puts me one pound away from my goal! YAY!! I am soooo excited!! I was starting to think I was never going to see the scale move again!LOL
Okay so back to my discoveries. I have learned so much about myself as a result of my change to a healthy life style. First of all, I believe I was overweight because I was so unhappy and so unhappy because I was so over weight. Sounds crazy I know, but since losing 56 pounds I have done a lot of soul searching. I have learned a lot of things about healthy choices, healthy foods, the importance of exercise and also the importance of taking care of me. I was such an emotional eater and the more weight I gained the more hopeless I felt about losing it. So I just ate more.
Now, I see that the issues behind the weight were harder to deal with then losing the weight. I think if we are emotionally not in a good place we are also physically not in a good place. The great thing is that now that I am healthier physically, I am also healthier emotionally. For me all the extra weight lead me in to more emotional turmoil. Such as emotional eating, very low self esteem, feeling unworthy, feeling terrible both physically and emotionally. So when I felt so bad about myself I treated myself like a garbage can and threw trash in my body. Tons of calories, saturated fats, bad carbs etc. Now that I feel good about myself, I want to treat myself better and put only the best in my body.
For me when I was so miserably overweight, I did not feel like I was worth the effort to do what it took to become healthy. I always felt like I would fail as I had many times 2 or 3 days in to an attempt to lose weight. Why bother I thought, everyone who knows me knows I am obese so then I'd feel bad about being obese and eat those emotions. It was an emotional and physical roller coaster.
What I have learned is that I WAS and AM worth the effort it took for me to drop the weight. I do not miss feeling so heavy, feeling so bad about myself, feeling like I belong in the background. Feeling so stuffed with garbage. I love feeling good about myself, feeling proud of myself, feeling worthy, feeling happy and like I belong anywhere I am. I lost weight and in this process I found myself. I know now I can do anything I put my mind to. I learned to like myself, care about myself and with that came such a huge positive burst of emotional well being. My entire attitude is different now then when I was so overweight. I can accept a compliment now whereas before I never could because I felt so bad about myself. When we lose weight we also lose so many bad things that we chose to live with for way to long.
Saying I have discovered me doesn't sound like much, but it is HUGE!! Just like carrying all the extra weight and keeping the bad habits and living in denial and having low self esteem all went hand in hand. Being healthy goes hand in hand with feeling good about yourself, pride, energy, being fit, and a positive attitude. It is way better to be healthy trust me!
I now know who I am and I know that it is so important to take care of myself because nobody can do that but me. I know if I am going to live a long healthy life I need to do my part and take care of my body by exercising and eating healthy. I like this new person so much better then the old unhappy over weight ashamed one I was when I started out. I am proud of myself for my accomplishments and I want all my spark friends and everyone who took their first step by coming to this site to feel these wonderful things that come with living a healthy lifestyle. So please if you stumble, get up! Do NOT give up. You will love all the wonderful things that come as a kind of bonus when you lose the weight. They are AMAZING!
We have so many wonderful people here and so many awesome tools to help us through the process. Take advantage of it and DO what you came here for! I am rooting for each and everyone of you to reach your goals. I truly believe that where there is a WILL there is a WAY! You clearly have the will because you are here. The way is here too. Use it all and accomplish your goals. You CAN do this!!
Have a great week everyone.