So here is the deal...
Thursday, June 18, 2009
...I am almost in tears with frustration that the scale is not moving. Then I feel guilty because joined the Community team to further enhance my abilities to help fellow Sparkers get through the rough times. Now I feel like I am not worthy to be on that team and I love helping fellow Sparkers.
In that past month since I renewed my Spark to a very serious tone I have changed my eating habits to an unbelievably healthy level. I won't even tell you exactly what awful habits I had for that is in the past. I have gotten off the couch and am now hitting the pavement with daily BRISK walks for up to 60 minutes. Consequently, my blood pressures have gone from 170/100 to 102/68 this morning. I am completely off the antidepressants and can conjure up my own damn endorphins, thank you very much. I feel better in my clothes and look better to me in the mirror. I am a much happier person.
Why won't the scale move? I want so badly to be 149 because 150 was just pure hell with lots of bad memories.
I will look forward and leave the past behind for its all I can do and celebrate the successes I have had in just one short month.
I CAN do this.