I can't dump the funk
Sunday, July 12, 2009
The next time I have a good emotionally-free day I am going to cherish every minute of it. The past few days I have been in such a funk that is miserable. Dammit! I seriously need to shake this off because I do not want to go back on meds. Why can't I be normal like other folks? DO I bring these things on myself? Am I imagining it?
Yesterday was my scheduled fitness day off and I managed to make myself feel guilty for allowing a day off. This morning I did not feel like running so I walked for 70 minutes and I got down on myself for not running. I AM MY OWN WORST ENEMY!
The one highlight of the day was a wonderful worship service at church and I was lifted by it. Right now I am clinging to any positive thought I can muster up and I sincerely hope that this is short-lived.
My gameplan in tackling this issue is to continue with my wonderful eating pattern I have developed and getting my fitness in. I will also continue tracking both. I will also contune to peruse the message boards and Spark Teams to glean positive energy that I obviously need.
Bottom line...I will not give in to negative self-talk that could lead me back to medication.
Thank you for listening.