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I can't dump the funk

Sunday, July 12, 2009

The next time I have a good emotionally-free day I am going to cherish every minute of it. The past few days I have been in such a funk that is miserable. Dammit! I seriously need to shake this off because I do not want to go back on meds. Why can't I be normal like other folks? DO I bring these things on myself? Am I imagining it?

Yesterday was my scheduled fitness day off and I managed to make myself feel guilty for allowing a day off. This morning I did not feel like running so I walked for 70 minutes and I got down on myself for not running. I AM MY OWN WORST ENEMY!

The one highlight of the day was a wonderful worship service at church and I was lifted by it. Right now I am clinging to any positive thought I can muster up and I sincerely hope that this is short-lived.

My gameplan in tackling this issue is to continue with my wonderful eating pattern I have developed and getting my fitness in. I will also continue tracking both. I will also contune to peruse the message boards and Spark Teams to glean positive energy that I obviously need.

Bottom line...I will not give in to negative self-talk that could lead me back to medication.

Thank you for listening.

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  • LAURIE5658
    Jeff, after researching the book on Amazon it seems that one trait I have is what causes alot of my problem...being too ANALYTICAL with EVERTYTHING! I am so good at overthinking!

    Thank you for reading my blog entry. I truly appreciate it.
    4290 days ago
  • FT4EVR
    emoticon I hope tomorrow brings a much brighter day! I get into funks too and just when I think I can't bring myself out of it...it clears and things feel "good" again. I am not sure if everyone deals with this but I do....so that makes 2 of us!
    You are right to keep up with your eating and fitness plan. Keeping a routine is one of the best things you can do.

    Sending you some positive thoughts!! Hope all is well soon!

    P.S. The sun'll come out tomorrow! emoticon
    4290 days ago
    I can totally relate to your sentiment about negative thinking. It became such a habit for me that it seemed normal to think that way most of the time.

    As I retrained my brain to think healthier thoughts and not abuse myself when I did not meet a goal [like skipping a workout] I found that I am a much happier and patient person.

    Recently, I started reading "The Power of NOW" by Eckhart Tolle. This book may be helpful for you.

    4290 days ago
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