Within 10 Pounds
Thursday, July 30, 2009
I'm within 10 pounds of my goal and I've reflected a lot about what that means. First of all, it means I'm scared. Scared that I will fail once again to actually MAINTAIN my weight loss. There is so much pressure put on us as we lose weight from friends and family. I'm still not used to hearing the word "skinny" and I'm hearing it a lot lately. It makes me even more nervous that these same people will be saying "she's gaining weight again" if I slip at all. Now I know all my friends and family are proud of me and very happy for the "new me", but it's scary as hell and no one really realizes how scary except for maybe most, if not some, of you. I'm 45 and I haven't weighed this weight since 1993 and haven't worn a size 14 (and some 12's) for 15 years!!! I really want to stay in the 160's and not blow it. I'd love my weight loss to be "GOODBYE" and not "See ya later"!! I just had to rant and say this "out loud" so hopefully I can calm myself.