Do I Want to be in the Same Place This Time Next Week/Month
Tuesday, August 04, 2009
Well, time does fly. I was going to write this several WEEKS ago, but procrastination has this effect. And this blog isn't about procrastination, but rather about change, & being willing & ready to do it.
I used to know a friend that was in AA where you work 12 steps of recovery. He used to quip that there was actually a Step Zero. Step Zero says, "This Crap (S//t) has GOT TO STOP." And so it is with not losing any weight for me. It started dawning on me anew a few weeks ago. I'd been going week after week, month after month, SAYING that I was trying to lose weight. Now. Let's get serious. What was I doing to really TRY. Yes, I'd exercise some. And I'd eat healthy a fairly decent amount of the time. But then I'd splurge like crazy whenever the occasion struck me, & undo anything I had done. So that in "trying" to lose weight, I was only maintaining. This isn't bad, I thought, but ...here it is... & it took a long time getting here this time... "Do I really want to be in this SAME PLACE this time next week?" Week after week, 174,174,174,174,174,174,176,17
4,173,174,172,174,177 & so on & so on & so on. Ok - a person can only take so much of any one thing.
I have got to quit kidding myself. I cannot eat 2700-3200 calories on Fri, Sat & maybe even Sun, & think I can cut back enough or work out enough during the week to make up for it. It AIN'T Happenin. I also know that when I drink beer - I EAT. So that's got to all but go also. I seem to have failing body parts, & therefore cannot work out like I used to & nothing like I'd like to. So. I have got to come to terms with my eating. I can no longer exercise off much more than a 1800 calorie day, which is barely over my BMR. I'm doing better & better the last couple of weeks - like every time around the merri-go-round now, I come a little closer to the brass ring of actually eating within my calorie range DAILY. Or at least within reason. Yep I missed it on Fri & Sat again this week, but NOT SUNDAY. And I'm planning to plan ahead for this weekend. I haven't had time for the formal plan yet, but at least it's in the works - not just let my hair down & go hog wild like usual.
Ok - I guess that's it. I've made it down to 170 now, & plan to try to visit a new number every week. Not the same one over & over & over. And I have to really want to do that & be willing to do what it takes & plan ahead, to be able to do that.