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Do I Want to be in the Same Place This Time Next Week/Month

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

Well, time does fly. I was going to write this several WEEKS ago, but procrastination has this effect. And this blog isn't about procrastination, but rather about change, & being willing & ready to do it.

I used to know a friend that was in AA where you work 12 steps of recovery. He used to quip that there was actually a Step Zero. Step Zero says, "This Crap (S//t) has GOT TO STOP." And so it is with not losing any weight for me. It started dawning on me anew a few weeks ago. I'd been going week after week, month after month, SAYING that I was trying to lose weight. Now. Let's get serious. What was I doing to really TRY. Yes, I'd exercise some. And I'd eat healthy a fairly decent amount of the time. But then I'd splurge like crazy whenever the occasion struck me, & undo anything I had done. So that in "trying" to lose weight, I was only maintaining. This isn't bad, I thought, but ...here it is... & it took a long time getting here this time... "Do I really want to be in this SAME PLACE this time next week?" Week after week, 174,174,174,174,174,174,176,17
4,173,174,172,174,177 & so on & so on & so on. Ok - a person can only take so much of any one thing.

I have got to quit kidding myself. I cannot eat 2700-3200 calories on Fri, Sat & maybe even Sun, & think I can cut back enough or work out enough during the week to make up for it. It AIN'T Happenin. I also know that when I drink beer - I EAT. So that's got to all but go also. I seem to have failing body parts, & therefore cannot work out like I used to & nothing like I'd like to. So. I have got to come to terms with my eating. I can no longer exercise off much more than a 1800 calorie day, which is barely over my BMR. I'm doing better & better the last couple of weeks - like every time around the merri-go-round now, I come a little closer to the brass ring of actually eating within my calorie range DAILY. Or at least within reason. Yep I missed it on Fri & Sat again this week, but NOT SUNDAY. And I'm planning to plan ahead for this weekend. I haven't had time for the formal plan yet, but at least it's in the works - not just let my hair down & go hog wild like usual.

Ok - I guess that's it. I've made it down to 170 now, & plan to try to visit a new number every week. Not the same one over & over & over. And I have to really want to do that & be willing to do what it takes & plan ahead, to be able to do that.
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  • SAL1512
    There is nothing wrong with being slow. It always takes me so long to get somewhere with my goals, but at least I am headed the right direction. I know that if I would eat less and exercise more that the weight would drop off. I just need to actually do that! It is frustrating because this is all my responsibility. I just have to DO IT!

    3715 days ago
  • NINJALINDA
    It struck me a while back that if this was REALLY going to work, and I mean long-term WORK...it couldn't be a part-time thing. I too had the 'anything goes on the weekend' mentality...and although I achieved some success that way, I didn't really take off on this journey until I got the weekends under control.

    I resisted for a long time, but let me tell you that it's really not THAT hard to eat & exercise the same way on the weekends that you do during the week. It's just a decision. If you are there, and I mean REALLY THERE...you can do it. It's just a matter of right thinking.

    For so long I looked at it as relaxing and rewarding myself on the weekend for being so 'good' during the week. But is it really a reward to un-do all the good you did during the week? I finally decided the answer to that question is no. I hope for you that you reach the same conclusion.
    4067 days ago
  • no profile photo CD3801913
    Wow--I know exactly how you guys feel!! I am constantly kidding myself that I can lose weight and still splurge on weekends! It's really hard to stop though.....
    4068 days ago
  • DOOBRIE
    Hi Jennifer, I was just like this too before I joined SparkPeople. I can't remember how many years I hovered around 170 lbs. I can't exercise much either so I'm losing weight by dieting. I track everything I eat then I have no excuses! If I go over 1550 (my maximum) I put on weight. If I eat around 1500 a day I maintain. If I stick to an average of 1,375, I lose 1 lb a week, so that's what I've been doing and so far it's been working. Took me a few months to work this out though - I was only losing 1/2 lb a week at first. Good luck with your planning ahead (and thanks for the SparkMail).
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    4068 days ago
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