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Thursday, August 06, 2009

So, I finally got my SparkPage done - only took me a little over 4 months! But here I am writing my first blog less than 24 hours later, so I guess I'm showing some improvement in my procrastination.

Actually, I never would have considered myself a procrastinator; I always thought I was pretty good about getting things accomplished. I'm realizing that's not necessarily the case - there's plenty of stuff I put off. Looking at why i accomplish some goals and not others I think I've found the differentiator. I procrastinate starting the efforts I'm afraid I will fail at.

Fear of failure - that's a huge roadblock for me. I wasn't necessarily afraid of developing my webpage, but it's a SparkPage which is tied to weight loss, which is something I've been very afraid of failing to accomplish. After all, I've already failed at it several times.

Procrastination is a way of assuming failure; of saying to yourself "I'll never complete this journey, so what's the sense in starting it?" With food, I find I often justify my actions by placing a condition on the start date - like "I can't go on a diet right before the Holidays. I'll start in January." Then it's Kathryn's birthday, then it's Valentines day with all that candy...it's always something. I'm not really failing because I haven't started trying. Fear of failing - a powerful emotion.

Maybe the real problem I have is that I need a new definition of failure. I read a quote from Mary Pickford (which is on my page) in which she opines that failure isn't falling - it's failing to get back up. That resonated with me. If we don't even try, we're always doomed to failure.

I had a friend who used to tell me to develop a tolerance for failure, and I'm beginning to understand that concept much better. Its so easy to say "I failed - I'm done!" But success lies in acknowledging the failure, treating it as a temporary mistake, and continuing on with the journey.

So, no more procrastinating on this journey - the one to better health through better choices and accountability. If I fail, if I fall, I'll just get back up and start again. After all, I just completed my first blog and I never really thought I'd do that!

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    Congrats on your first blog entry! YaY!

    There's no stopping you from accomplishing what you've set out to do. The important thing to remember is that everyone messes up and everyone falls off the wagon and everyone has a bad day (or two or three or ...). What is great about this place is that you are surrounded by people who know and understand that and have been there themselves.

    Big steps or baby steps, it doesn't matter as long as you're stepping!
    3948 days ago
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